11 days NC!!!!

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Registered: 06-14-2004
11 days NC!!!!
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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 4:21pm
I had awonderful weekend with my H and am really happy and satisfied with myself, cuz i didn't call MM for his birthday last week, we've been NC for 11 days and i really wanted to call for his birthday because i felt bad and even dialed his number except the last digit and then hung up, I started remembering the roller coaster i had been through in the past year and if we are through why should i contact him.


I had a slip us two weeks ago as i posted and your words of encouragment and advice helped me forgive myself and continue my NC. I never told him it was over but he was probably waiting for me to call for his B'Day and i'm so happy i didn't. And as i read in one of the posts, it's true what he feels should be irrelevant to me, i had put myself through too much and have been hurt too many times, and neither me, my H or my family deserves this.

I'm just hoping i don't go through another withdrawal again, it's the worst feeling and i felt so helpless. I was wondering i'm leaving in a few months, do you think i should call to say goodbye or send a letter? I asked my friend the only person who knows about A and she said not to call him for his b'day but she told i should just call him right before i leave since it's safe at that point and will give me a sense of closure. What do you thikn


Hope you are all having a good weekend

Twilight

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-10-2004
In reply to: i_twilight
Tue, 10-19-2004 - 12:55am
Good job on NC!! I am starting over and so I will be glad when I have 11 days again. But I didn't see him--so it should be easier than last time. I know what you mean about the withdrawals--I don't want them anymore.

Keep it up.

Survive