2 weeks, 2 days and 2 emails later...

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Registered: 01-31-2011
2 weeks, 2 days and 2 emails later...
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Sun, 02-27-2011 - 12:29pm
I have still not blocked his email BUT, i have not sent him a email or responded to 2 of his for this long. My next step is to block his email but i still have that insecure need to know that he is still trying. Soon, my ego will not need that and I can truly be free.

I am not a caller nor do i have any need to answer his calls. I truly have always wanted to keep this contact to distant communications, under my control. I have been leading this guy on a chase for years now. I owe it to myself and him to stop, once and for all. For petes sake, how did i get so needy???
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Sun, 02-27-2011 - 12:56pm
Mac,

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Only you have the answer to this question and with more time and distance, and perhaps some counseling, you will uncover it. Great job on the the 2 weeks and 2 days, but by not blocking him, you are still keeping the door ajar.

You will come to learn that all affairs are EGO driven and that it takes ones own inner resolve to acknowledge that "IT doesn't matter" whether he is still emailing you, thinking about you, missing you, or whatever. What does matter is that you learn to love yourself enough to know that this line of thinking is unhealthy and counterproductive to your healing.

((Hugs))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 04-01-2010
Sun, 02-27-2011 - 5:26pm
You will block when you have conviction of your own strength. Or you will do it because you know it is the best way to protect yourself. this ending can be very difficult but the more YOU do to gain CONTROL of your life, the faster your recovery. Two weeks is an excellent start to clear the fog and start sifting through the junk. Keep up the great work.
Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 07-21-2009
Sun, 02-27-2011 - 6:44pm

Hi-

Soon, my ego will not need that and I can truly be free.

I hope for your sake that this is true...but I guess I'm wondering why you say this?

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Registered: 01-31-2011
Mon, 02-28-2011 - 9:43pm
I could not figure out how to block him. So i created a new address and spent all day moving my personal accounts over. Then i deleted that account. I have 72 hours to chsnge my mind and reopen the account.

So now what do i do? Lol, i need another hobby.
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Tue, 03-01-2011 - 10:19am
This is a great start, Mac. You are taking action now for guarding yourself against further injury. And BTW, a new hobby is an excellent idea. ;-)

((Hugs))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha