20 days success!
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|Wed, 08-22-2012 - 8:18pm|
Today is 20 days no contact and the longest we've gone without at least talking in a year. Today was really hard, he lives in a small town where I have to go once a month. I went today with the crazy battle in my head,,, "just one more time won't hurt",,, "no way",,,, you know the battle. Well I WON!! Done with my appt and left town.
I have an amazing vacation coming up next week and I'm so excited! Not going to ruin it with any new hurts!
I still don't understand the 'why', but I know there's a part of me that wants to sabotoge my life, but I'm the one in control. I have so much to be grateful for, I have everything I need, I'm healthy, a great home, job, opportunities of my dreams, I'm in great shape and I have the control to keep ahold of what I have. No one, not even the crazy part of me is going to mess it up!!
Thanks RBM, your messages are sinking in, it really is up to ME!