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|Tue, 04-01-2003 - 2:23pm|
I am crying less. I seem to have turned a corner. Only a week ago I was idealizing the MM like you wouldn't believe, wishing that he would return, begging him to leave his wife and return to me (when alone, in the privacy of my own home).
Today I'm feeling like, "What? Why would I want him? Why would I want someone who treated me so badly? Who couldn't decide if he wanted me or someone else?"
I know that I deserve someone who wants me and only me, and I know this is true for all you single ladies too.
For all of you who are new to the board, and new to NC, let me tell you that it does work. It doesn't work right away. You have to stick with it. You have to go through the crying, the withdrawal, the pain, the anger, the hatred, the helplessness, the hopelessness. But these feelings do pass eventually. And you will feel better. I promise.
So thanks to all of you who have been here for me. I started posting back in November and I don't think I could have left him and stopped contact if it weren't for this board.