aaaah I get this NC thing now...!

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Registered: 05-05-2010
aaaah I get this NC thing now...!
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Fri, 09-03-2010 - 4:40am

So I deleted XMM from my phone- check; blocked texts from coming through- check; deleted from FB- check; IM- ooops forgot to do that. Well I think I know why you say block and walk. I signed into IM a few days ago and was chit chatting with friends and who signs in XMM. O_ M_ G!!!! I got this over whelming feeling come over me. Almost like paralysis.. it was awful. My heart raced; started crying; my hands were shaking I couldnt type. Although I did not speak to him and he did not speak to me I was so upset to see him on. You see he goes on to chat with OOW!!! FOR SURE!!! My mind was going in all directions. How he is happily flirting with all these ladies. I did not sleep for a couple of nights. I missed him and I wanted him again. Well... after an hour of torturing myself by staring at his online status I deleted the last bit of connection I have/ had to him. I was sooooo upset almost like thats it! I did it and its OVER! Which it was anyway. He is not on so at least I wont see when he is on and at least I wont know if he ignores me. I wont give him the chance to ignore me. I hate the hurt.

Why did he not want to talk to me anymore? All that is going on and around my brain. My heart is in so much pain. Am I that easily replacable? Kicked my worth to the ground. well that is what it felt like :-(

SO NC does equal NO NEW HURTS!!! I finally get it!

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Registered: 05-05-2010
Fri, 09-03-2010 - 10:38am

OMG Cait.. please please DO IT! It is SOOOOO hard I KNOW! It will only hurt you!

You are halfway there! After I deleted him I felt like it was really over. There are no more ties to him. And it took me an hour to delete him. I just stared at him ONline and I cried! But I did it. So can you! Im sure you will find that strength in you and cut it off all together! :-)

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