Am feeling so much better about life...

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Am feeling so much better about life...
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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 2:13pm
Today I decided that I am going to start off positively today. Tuesdays are rotten days for me because I used to see OM on Tuesdays and I still have to see everything that I associate him with on this night, just without the benefit (if you can call it that...) of him. But I got up and took my time to make sure I looked nice and it felt great. It felt even better to hear that I looked great. I have let myself go so much since the end of my A....I think I wanted to discourage any male attention subconsiously....strange but that is the way I think. I have my last class tonight and my H and I are taking out daughter on a family vacation with my best friend and her family. I am going to concentrate on the positives right now. In a few weeks I will get back to the reality of deciding what I need to do with my life, but today it sure feels nice to be happy!!!

Hugs to all of you!!! You are some of the sweetest, wisest, people I know!!!

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige

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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 3:37pm
Hugs back at ya Karry! Keep doing the things that make YOU feel good!

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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 3:45pm
Karry - I'm PROUD of you girl!! For fixing yourself up and not letting the memories of your Tuesdays weigh you down and ruin the day for you... those triggers are so hard to get past... I can't see a car like XMMs without still giving myself whiplash trying to see if it's him or W... and if I go to certain places where we were together... it's HARD. But - you are SO strong and you can do this and come out of it better in the end.

Enjoy the vacation!!!

Glinda

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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 3:57pm
Great to hear the positive!!! You just hang in there and go with the "good flow" .....be happy when you can!!

and Glinda ..... I think I've had to wear a neck brace before from that very same whiplash!! LOL

K

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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 4:26pm
Bless your everloving hard trying heart! It just makes my day when someone tries so hard to look for the positive! Keep up the hard work the payoff is better then winning the lotto!!!!
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Tue, 04-22-2003 - 5:03pm
Karry ~ you go girl! And I mean it. You are on a healthy road and it does start with our own attitude. Creating the habit of thinking positive is a choice and Lord knows, with the hormones we go through monthly, it is tough enough at certain times! LOL. Hey, there is more to life. And here is something for you to think about. When you are coming back from this vacation with your D, don't you dare begin to think about coming back to your pain! Let yourself marvel at all the good moments of your vacation and think about how you can preserve those moments once you get back! Thinking positive is a great step along with doing nice things for yourself.

I think you are a very sweet and smart lady too! Hugs to you and I hope you have a wonderful time. Can't wait to hear all about it when you get back. In fact, I will email you and you can send me one once you do get back!

We'll miss ya!

GT

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Wed, 04-23-2003 - 8:56am
Thank you to all of you for your kind words and good wishes. Yesterday was one of the best days I've had in a while. After my post I went to class in the evening and received my final grade for the term and it was a big fat (A). I was way excited....and then I recieved an e-mail from my ex-om (which may not be a good thing for some) and he said that it has not been easy to get over our relationship and that he has missed me, so now I even have the closure that I was not just a sex thing for him. I have no desire to hear anymore from him, but it was nice to receive that message after all this time. Now I can officially move on with things and know that what is done is done and that OM and I can get on with being happy and maybe look back at some of the great times we had together!!!

Thanks so much and I'm so happy to have you guys to talk with!! You have all been such a great help to me and I can only hope that I can do the same for you!!!

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige