This A.M. was the 1st time i did not. .

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This A.M. was the 1st time i did not. .
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Thu, 04-22-2004 - 1:14pm
immediately think of XMM upon waking. It was wonderful! That is progress for me.

Clarice

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Registered: 05-11-2003
Thu, 04-22-2004 - 1:32pm
Wow!

What was that first thought this morning?

And, how long until it occurred to you that it was not about MM?

Congrats!

-L
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Registered: 07-25-2003
Thu, 04-22-2004 - 1:38pm
this morning was the 1st time in well over a year that this happened. My first thought this morning was over a political issue at my church--where i sit on the board of directors. it took me about half an hour before i realized i had not even thought of Xmm.

It really felt good. Now, when i can't sleep at night--or wake up in the middle of the night--instead of tracing the shadows on the ceiling and thinking about all of this, i read. It's amazing how a good book can take your mind of things. When i turn the light out, instead of going back to thinking about xMM and my H and all that has happened the last year, i simply think about the characters in the book. Needless to say, i've done a ton of reading in the last few weeks.

I am also sleeping now with rosary beads. I hold them in my hand at night and lo and behold, they are still in my hands first thing in the morning--which reminds me to pray and get focused right off the bat.

Every little bit helps.

Clarice

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Registered: 03-16-2004
Thu, 04-22-2004 - 4:46pm
Yay! Good for you! :)

Bedtime is usually the time for me that the thoughts come flooding in, but last night all I could think about was how p-o'd I was at the American Idol bottom 3... (You AI watchers know what I'm talking about.) That was progress for me, too. ;)

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Registered: 04-13-2004
Thu, 04-22-2004 - 5:06pm
Ok, I dont understand what was going on last night either with American Idol??? My sister and I were on the phone freaking out!! That was a good way to keep my mind off of things too! Funny, while I was watching it, I was thinking I wonder if any of you are as passionate about AI as I am? Glad to see there is another out there that I can exchange my thoughts on about this. Ok. Wrong post I know, there must be an AI board but what is up w/ the red head kid not being thrown out already. Sorry if I offened anyone who likes him but YIKES! I think he sucks!

Phew, feel so much better now that I got that off of my chest!

:)

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Registered: 04-13-2004
Thu, 04-22-2004 - 5:08pm
Sorry Clarice, got carried away w/ the whole American Idol thing and didnt even acknowledge the most important thing and that is CONGRATS TO YOU!

Those little wins do feel good dont they?


xo!