An AMAZING thing happened today!!
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An AMAZING thing happened today!!
| Fri, 11-12-2004 - 2:39am |
I'm sorry so many had a bad day today. I thought I would share something that happened to me today (for the first time in YEARS!) I hope it will serve as a little bit of encouragement.
My 15 yr. old daughter didn't have school today but I did. She wasn't sure what she was going to be doing so without giving it a second thought, I gave her my cell phone for the day (I have NEVER done that, too risky). I didn't even have to THINK about it. I've guarded my phone so carefully for so many years and now I just hand it over to my daughter.
Also, usually after my classes I rush home "just in case" OMM has sent an e-mail (I know I shouldn't but admit it, we ALL do that for a while right?).
Today I spent about 45 min. after class chatting with the teacher and some really nice women I've met in school. There was nothing compelling me to hurry to my car and rush home.
It wasn't until I was driving home at the end of the day that I realized, "HEY, I gave my daughter my cell phone today AND I didn't even think to rush home to check e-mail".
I know it seems like such a little thing but it's a mile stone for me. I'm starting to remember what my life was like before the A, and I love it! It smells like freedom.
My 15 yr. old daughter didn't have school today but I did. She wasn't sure what she was going to be doing so without giving it a second thought, I gave her my cell phone for the day (I have NEVER done that, too risky). I didn't even have to THINK about it. I've guarded my phone so carefully for so many years and now I just hand it over to my daughter.
Also, usually after my classes I rush home "just in case" OMM has sent an e-mail (I know I shouldn't but admit it, we ALL do that for a while right?).
Today I spent about 45 min. after class chatting with the teacher and some really nice women I've met in school. There was nothing compelling me to hurry to my car and rush home.
It wasn't until I was driving home at the end of the day that I realized, "HEY, I gave my daughter my cell phone today AND I didn't even think to rush home to check e-mail".
I know it seems like such a little thing but it's a mile stone for me. I'm starting to remember what my life was like before the A, and I love it! It smells like freedom.
Cow Girl up!

Congrats Cowgirl! That was a very good day. I wish you more of the same in your future. :)
Someday
That's HUGE! You're right to celebrate it!
It's pretty amazing when we realise it's only us who can screw ourselves up, eh?
You go, CGU!
Wishing you strength & peace,
Posie
Thank you for sharing that, it helped more then you know I still cling to my phone, tho I am really not sure why I never hid the A but I guess just in case it rang I had to have it. I do have an advantage most dont, I cant have my phone on at work I can only return calls during breaks and lunch so it makes it easier for me when I work ( days off are still hard)I can only clean so much HAHA..I will have passed a mile stone when I can walk out of the house ans such an forget the phone with out it causing a panic attack..Thanks again for the added inspiration..
HUGGS,
KRM
Hi cowgirlsup,
I'm so glad you posted your positive day. Congrats! It is a big step. Keep smelling that Freedom fresh air.
I had a great day yesterday and wanted to share it!
I had, had an extremely bad weekend. Saw my ex by accident, my son who is 12 and admires him very much was with me and he didn't speak to him or me for that matter. Anyway, hurt my sons feelings. Long story short I emailed him and told him he did and he ignored my email.
Yesterday was good though, I was strong. Yesterday was the first day I actually felt like I "wanted" to be at work in months. I felt like I had a better grip on things, today also, feeling a little better each day. I refuse to let him think he's broken me. I am stronger than that. He wants me to be miserable without him. But, I am feeling so much better than I was just a couple of days ago. I go to my counselor tomorrow night! He'll be surprised at how much progress I've made!
SusieCutie
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