and, I'm back.

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and, I'm back.
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Mon, 06-21-2010 - 1:40pm

So, I went to Jamaica with my mother (only) for my brother's wedding last week. First off, no offense to Jamaica or anyone from there, but I am soooo thankful I wasn't paying for that trip or I'd have been piiissssed. I would not recommend Jamaica for a vaca, and I'll leave it at that.

My brother's wedding was sweet. He's 45 and never been married - now he's married to a 3rd-timer with an 8 year old child and he seems thrilled. I am happy for him, but also feeling soooo cautious to be too hopeful about their future. Don't you just love how having 'a past' f's up the Suzy Sunshine optimism when it comes to M and Rs? I was unable to make a toast because I was too emotional and at a loss for words. I know, right? Me. At a loss for words. Somebody alert the press!

Being on vaca, with a lot of time to think while relaxing in my beach chair made me swing like a manic pendulum between bittersweet thoughts re: xAP and just plain bitter thoughts. A very wise and dear friend advised me that being in a romantic local like that would be bound to bring up those feelings. I'm thankful for that because it's nice to know my feelings were "normal" and that I can take those feelings with a grain of salt and dismiss them without too much over-analyzing or angst. Not _every_ uncomfortable thought or feeling needs to be 'worked out' or entertained. It's like saying, "yeah, whatever. this is meaningless and will pass." what a relief.

I was a little disappointed with the welcome I received from my H upon my return, but I tried to keep my rrrawwwrrr to a minimum. We had a nice conversation about expectations and the differences we have re: communicating them and delivering upon them. i.e.: him putting out lawn lights in the backyard is NOT a romantic return home gesture. Sorry to break it to ya, Honey! ha. Anyhoo, I am thankful that I didn't have xAP's response to my return to contend with -- it would have either been 100% opposite of H's (unfairly making H look like a big Ahole in comparison) or X would have disappointed and vexed me (distracting me from focusing on my RL and my H).

I'm boring even myself now, so I'm going back to work! Glad to be back to the board and looking forward to a week of reading some fantabulous posts from my girls.

Cheers,
Dee

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Mon, 06-21-2010 - 2:14pm

Welcome back, Dee!....I miss your posts. I cannot post often - too many eyes at home and no personal

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 3:56pm

oh thank God!

Babysteps


...even if it is all I can do, I can take one babystep.


NC/LC since May 21, 2010

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Mon, 06-21-2010 - 4:38pm

Thank gawd you're back, Dee-Dear. We could use a little levity around here!!!


I'm thinking you must be all tan and relaxed and ready to enlighten us with all the wisdom you gained under the coconut trees.


Welcome back.

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Mon, 06-21-2010 - 8:06pm

Missed you Dee. Glad you are back.

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 02-21-2009
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 9:46pm

Hi Dee,

Welcome back!

So glad to see you back on the boards! You were missed! I always look for your very insightful and helpful posts!

:)
HSL

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Registered: 04-20-2009
Tue, 06-22-2010 - 12:31am

Hi, Everyone. I feel like Sally Fields giving her acceptance speech... ha! thanks for the loves!

Yes, it's true. IMETP's (aka Babysteps) whiny bullshiz nearly drove me off the board - I mean, c'mon, give it a rest already! - but, I decided for the greater good of the community that y'all just could NOT live with out me and I must simply sacrifice my own precious time and energy to keep you all afloat. I'm a giver. it's what I do. I know. I know. It's a burden few can carry, but.. hey, I can only do what God directs me to do. I'm kinda like Joan of Arc that way. but, you know, withOUT the, like, being burned at the stake and stuff. Besides, I DVR'd Glee so it's really not _that_ much of a sacrifice, right? But, in all honesty, and I'm not joking here... that fn Jane is really starting to chap my azz with all her perky insight and deep thoughts. How gd competitive can one chick be!!? I really only came back because I couldn't let her have the last word. Y'all love me more than her, right? you do, don't you?? pleeeeaaaase? love me, oh god... please, love me.

My attorney Mr. John Jameson advises me to disavow all above statements so....

Babysteps and Jane, we're coo, right? ;)

Love you all and thank you for making me feel special (and NOT in the short-bus kind of way)

xo
Dee

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Tue, 06-22-2010 - 8:52am

:) Totally cool.


Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 04-05-2010
Tue, 06-22-2010 - 9:18am

Hey Dee!


Welcome back!!!!!...was wondering where you had disappeared to! Definitely missed your posts! Sorry Jamaica was disappointing, I have always wanted to vacation there.... maybe not???? Have a great day...look forward to your insight again :)


Healing

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Registered: 12-07-2009
Tue, 06-22-2010 - 10:09am

Hey DEE-lightful,


Welcome back, my little chickadee. Now, if you don't mind, lets start doling out those "kick-a$$" posts of yours so I can take a little

   ~Iddy~ 


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Registered: 04-15-2010
Tue, 06-22-2010 - 10:21am

DEE

I have missed you so much!

I started sneaking in 'where's' Dee?' into posts.

Yippee.

Just in time - 'cause i do love that Jane so.

TU.

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou

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