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| Tue, 02-09-2010 - 12:59pm |
I got so many wonderful, supportive and encouraging posts when I posted recently re: slipping from indifference after an onslaught of triggers attacked me all at once; thank you! thank you!
Now, three days later, I am still struggling with regaining indifference and find myself very angry and frustrated - both with myself for wasting my time thinking about xAP in any way, shape or form - and at xAP over some sh*t he did that still bothers me (and which I thought gotten over/past and couldn't care less about anymore.) Now, I feel like I'm stuck in a phase of "working through" issues that DON'T MATTER, instead of focusing on myself and the recovery from the A and the regaining of my health.
Part of me wants to rant here about the issue(s) and see if the purge will help relieve some of the pressure, or de-mystify the whole thing by 'getting it out there' -- and part of me is thinking that doing that is indulging my current lapse of grace and would be a newbie-maneuver that I should have out grown a while back. What do you think? Purge, bitch, rant and dissect --- or ---- just get the f over it, shove it down, and move on pretending I don't care until it true that I don't care.
Thoughts, my lovely posters?

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Here is my reaction to your rant:
((Kmg6))
Excellent response and I agree with all of it. Congrats on the 8 days of NC. It's a start and now you have both feet on the ground and are no longer hopping on just one. ;-)
((Hugs))
~ Iddy~
~Iddy~
Yeah, no sh*t! I agree with Iddy; this is a great post!!!
I'm literally making notes on my legal pad - with underlines and all sorts of !!!!!'s and stuff!
Thank you so much for this.
You are going to rock at NC. Congrats on Day 8. One week down!
WTG!
Dee
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