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| Wed, 06-02-2010 - 5:22pm |
Hello Friends,
Well, today would have been our four year anniversary. I always wanted to treat it as a special day. We always spent a whole night together on our anniversary. But looking back, it was always me who was making the big deal of it, I really don't think that he really cared. That is still hard for me to accept! UGH!
I'm back from vacation and would love to tell you that I didn't think of xAP, but alas, I did. But, I wasn't sad, just reflected some on how different things are now than they were last summer when I was living a double life.
Tomorrow marks my 7 weeks NC. I'm not really in pain, but I still feel the weight of the fog. I wonder if my life will ever get back to normal? Honestly, I guess I don't remember life being normal before AP came along, so wondering about all that is a waste of time.
I'm hanging in there, girls. Thanks for letting me know that I'm not alone in all of this. Sometimes I still feel like I should be over it all still. Like, if it was nothing to xAP, then it should be nothing to me too. If he can move on with his life like it never happened, I should be able to do the same.
Time for a glass of wine. I really don't want to think about this anymore today.
-Angel

Angel, I hope you enjoyed your glass of wine!
Very wise words wawhy. Very wise indeed.
angel - hugs to you.