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Another day! :(
| Tue, 01-18-2005 - 8:33am |
I was feeling better last night. Guess it was sort of false b/c I woke up feeling sick and crying again. I know it is only day 2 but still. I hate that any normal everyday activity right now seems like a chore. I hate wondering if he is thinkign of me when it doesnt really matter. I just hate thinking right now! This gets better roght?????
Just rambling and venting...

Capn,
Yes, it does get better. I know it doesn't seem like it right now, but I promise it will. xOM and I have been broken up for 5 months now. For the first 3 months we stayed in contact - big mistake. Then we had a huge blow out and didn't speak for a month. Then I broke NC and we talked for over an hour. It's now been 5 weeks since we have spoken. I still think about him every day. I think it will still be awhile before that goes away. But I don't cry anymore...and that feels pretty good.
Diva
I'd take not crying right now! LOL I feel like a zombie tryign to get thru my day. I am not even at the point where I see any positives. Just trying to fill up my days!
I remember those days. I had a hard time getting up and going to work. All I wanted to do was lay in bed and cry. If I could have found a rock big enough, I would have crawled under it and stayed there. It was so hard to come home to my H every night and act like nothing was wrong - to hang out with my friends and not tell them - to not pick up the phone and beg xOM to take me back.
I found journaling helpful. I would write for hours at a time. Just to get the thoughts out of my head!
Diva
Cap
I can't say much because my A ended differently. But I feel for what you are going
through. I have felt pain like yours before, so no matter what I say to you it will
not make it any easier until you have went through the greifing process on your
on terms.
I wish you the best though and here's to a better tomorrow.
Luv