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Another Day Down..
| Thu, 09-16-2004 - 8:39am |
It has been almost 2 months NC for me cant believe
im saying that. In the past days when I felt the
urge to write MM and talk to him I would come here
until I was over it. Yesterday was his birthday
and I couldnt get him off my mind all day.
Feeling really emotionally tired this morning and
went over to All Sides and found this reply to a
post that helped give me stability and remind me
why I eneded the A.
im saying that. In the past days when I felt the
urge to write MM and talk to him I would come here
until I was over it. Yesterday was his birthday
and I couldnt get him off my mind all day.
Feeling really emotionally tired this morning and
went over to All Sides and found this reply to a
post that helped give me stability and remind me
why I eneded the A.
If the sex was so "mind blowing" and it was such a great escape, why come back to a SO? Can the SO ever bring you happiness if your A was so great (assuming it was)?
I think the answer to this question in the case of my MM is "because that's where his life is." Yes, he and I had some great sex, but they did too. His wife brings him great happiness I was what took up his time on the road. She was and is where he is grounded, she is his life. His "real" world..... I was his fantasy. He was always honest about that, right from the start.
As for why the affair ended? I guess got tired of being a fantasy.
Grammie

I read that response early this morning too. Grammie is a very wise soul who had a 6 or 7 year affair, and ended it last year, I think. She is still reeling from the after effects, so understand that you are only 2 months out. Getting past these damn affairs can take years even though the NC starts immediatiely. Eveyone has their own progress report stats and after 4 months ended for me, I can relate to the emotionally tired stuff.
Had one of those days earlier this week....It's a constant battle, but one we can WIN.
You should be so proud of yourself for coming this far. I know I am!
Hugs,
~True~