Anxious about tomorrow

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Registered: 07-20-2004
Anxious about tomorrow
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Sun, 11-28-2004 - 7:26pm

Tomorrow is Monday and I would expect to hear from MM. I have to go into work 2 hours early tomorrow but since I haven't heard from him, he doesn't know this. If he tries to call at all at his normal time, I will miss his call because I will already be at work. He will probably think I gave up on him and I'm just not answering. I will expect a VM fom him. But since things just aren't as I "expected" anyway, who know what tomorrow will bring, and I'm feeling quite anxious about it. I haven't spoken to him since Thursday morning. I'm to the point where if he has decided once again, to stay in his marriage, then I hope he doesn't even call me. It has been 4 days of NC. I would prefer just to keep it going, instead of having to start over. (Of course I can't tell him that without contacting him.)After not hearing from him for so long, it's easy to believe that he just doesn't care about me anymore and that he lost his love for me. In reality I don't think that could happen in 4 days, but it seems like it's been forever. I just want to say thank you for all of you who have been here for me over this long weekend. I think I'd be going insane without you!!! I will let you all know what happens tomorrow, but I work from 8am til 10 pm tomorrow!!! (Yes, long day, and I'm welcoming it!)I hope your Monday goes better than I think mine will. ANd thanks again!

PAL

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Registered: 07-30-2004
Sun, 11-28-2004 - 7:42pm
Hi Pal.
Still no word I see. It's hard to believe that a wall so thick could spring up between you and someone you love and that has said many times that they love you in just a moment. I know that pain and I'm sorry.
I hope he does call either way - cause you'll need the closure. What can I say but that my thoughts are with you. I'll look for your post tomorrow!
gabby