Anyone else?

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Registered: 08-27-2008
Anyone else?
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Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:21pm

anyone else feeling like its time for change? time to get on with my life and whats in the past is there and thats where it needs to stay? Im feeling like its time to move on, in every sense of the word.


I feel like Ive punished myself long enough. It time to forgive myself . Hes the one who has to live with his choices, I dont.

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Registered: 01-24-2010
In reply to: dm2006
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:41pm
I so agree. Although I am only 7 wks NC THIS time, there were many other ending attempts during the past 9 yrs that I believe "practice makes perfect". That said I am ready to be done and move on and not give him and the past another moment's thought. Sometimes I think coming here may keep me thinking about him and the A. Then a trigger - at work yesterday I heard him paged (never saw him, just heard his name)and my heart raced. So I know I am not ready to lose the support and strength I get from coming here. Still, dm I look to the day, I feel really ready to put this all away. Maybe you are there now and I wish you well. ((HUGS))
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Registered: 08-18-2008
In reply to: dm2006
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 3:20pm

Good to see you at this point Debbra! Good post and it's a realistic way of looking at the future.


Yes time for change and I hope you will consider IC in the process.


Also congrats. on 7 weeks NC Seemeclearly! Hope it sticks this time for you.


Much love and big hugs,


E1


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Registered: 08-27-2008
In reply to: dm2006
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 5:46pm

Hi E1


Its like something has finally clicked today. Im sick of holding myself back, for a long time now Ive felt it was all XAP fault and hated him for what he has left me to feel. Not no more, I control my emotions. Im nervous of what the future has in store for me and my M, but I can not move fwd when Im always looking over my shoulder..wondering,remembering.


I have started IC but Im very opionionated on it. Does it work? Is it working? The only answer I have is I finally feel like Im letting go and moving fwd.


Thank you for your support and wisdom


Debbra

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Registered: 08-27-2008
In reply to: dm2006
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 5:51pm

Hi Seeme,


7 weeks NC, good for you! Of course ur heart is still going to race, I think if I had to work with XAP mine would too,even now with almost 6 months NC. I think its just the nature of the beast. But you controlled urself...thats awsome. I really hope u recognize that and embrace it.


Im not ready to lose the support of this board or these ladies...too much words of wisdom not only in dealing with all of this but alot of the quotes and advice I can carry throughout my whole day/different situations. This is my strength...even thou I dont post everyday Im here multiple times out of the day.


Hang in there...dont give up on yourself.


DM

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Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: dm2006
Tue, 02-09-2010 - 5:42am

Deb,


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Well honey, it sounds to me that IC is working if you feel you are ready to let go and move forward. ;-)


Seriously,

   ~Iddy~