back on the NC bandwagon...Day1 AGAIN!

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Registered: 01-10-2010
back on the NC bandwagon...Day1 AGAIN!
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Wed, 01-27-2010 - 6:08pm

XAP contacted me on Monday and I was feeling weak.

Imustenjoypain!
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Registered: 12-31-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 10:06pm

Vent away, IMEP! At least you know what you need to do and you are not trying to rationalize that what you did was OK. I have been through this very thing. I tried being "just friends" with my XAP for 6 months. We still talked almost every day, so the EA was still going strong. Then I fell right back into the full flown A. HUGE mistake! It took me another 1.5 years to finally end it for good. Being friends just won't work and it's not OK just to chitchat. It's good that you know this.

I feel your pain. I also work with my XAP. We serve on many of the same committees at our place of employment. This is the third day in a row that we've been in a committee meeting. These meetings are all ~1-1.5 hours. I had a pretty rough time in yesterday's meeting because I had to actually speak to him in the meeting, and that meant making eye contact. I made it through, but not without some pain. I did not let anyone see it!

So the reason I'm rambling on is just to let you know that I understand what you are experiencing. You did the right thing by coming to this board. And you are doing the right thing by starting over. Hang tough! I'll be thinking about you.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
Thu, 01-28-2010 - 7:23am

Imust~


It's a step in the right direction to hold yourself accountable and post here about your slip up.


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