Like a Bad Penny

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Like a Bad Penny
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Wed, 01-19-2011 - 1:09pm

He keeps turning up.

I was still asleep. My phone rang. Ive put in so many resumes and applications and jam has been the LAST thing on my mind for so long..."private number" meant ...Oh this must be a job!

The GULL = I didnt recognize his voice. He started with....I wanted to tell you on New Years Eve, I left my wife. I packed a bag. I came and sat at your place till 8 in the morning....you never showed up ...now, though she's taken me back and everything's fine. were gna work on our marriage - and Oh...Ive got to take my mom to the morturary today.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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Fri, 01-21-2011 - 5:48pm

I just wanted to give a high 5 to myself.

Ive been talking to a pitcher for a baseball team, and JUST FOUND OUT he has a gf. I have now just STOPPED

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 01-18-2010
Fri, 01-21-2011 - 11:36pm
Good for ya....ballers can be dangerous, very dangerous. Good looking, great body, well to do, and a trillion other women notice too
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Fri, 01-21-2011 - 11:57pm

Yah tell me about it! Phew! Young too! Hes a major leaguer.

You know...but he's actually STILL texting me. YES..... i stopped responding. EVERYONE! :)

But the foolishness...he said...."his gf" is just a friend with benefits. As on his FB HER family...is posting pics of them at Christmas 2010. UH YAH. Lemme tell you...

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Sat, 01-22-2011 - 8:01pm

Even though I've been admittedly obtuse for the past few days,

Im starting to see it a little better.

By listening rather than hanging up the phone, I have to take responsibility for myself and the consequent hurt I went through for a couple days being "confused", and acting out emotionally out of my codependence. It wasnt until I just re-read homework week 1 about responsibility and focusing on OURSELVES - (thanks Konline for pointing me back to week1)

and REALIZED that, that's what Dee was telling me about

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 11-16-2010
Sat, 01-22-2011 - 10:39pm

(((((Michelle)))))

I read your post and i just want to reach out to you, i sense your pain.

What i read between the lines here goes beyond the A addiction, what i see here are fears that have resulted from 3 years of damage from your XAP, all in his aim to forever keep you, in the way he wanted to, selfishly in his life. Your story resonates with me, i too was in a toxic 5yr relationship, prior to meeting my H, it was a RL relationship, but toxic nonetheless, for five years i was told i was worthless, and deserved nothing, all in his intent to keep me under his control, that R damaged me for a very long time.

Now you are in the next chapter of your life, the healthy chapter, the better chapter, the chapter that will be all about YOU, your choices (not XAPs choices), your actions (not XAPs actions), your needs (not XAPs needs), your feelings (not XAPs feelings).....YOUR LIFE. We are all brought into this world to live our lives, we get one chance at it, let's not live it for somebody else. You deserve all the wonderful things life has to offer Michelle, always remember that.

V888
xxxxoooooxxxxxx

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