Banging my head against the wall

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Registered: 02-02-2011
Banging my head against the wall
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Sun, 02-20-2011 - 11:08pm
Why why why did I want this man he had nothing to offer nothing... I could see if my h was gross, didnt want me , was an ahole etc but hes very attractive takes good care of himself, works hard, loves me no matter what side of me he sees... Side by side they dont compare at all and I'm not just saying that cuz its over its true... One time in the whole time xap and I have been I have actually had an O and w/o tmi that was my doing... Dont get me wrong he didnt suck I had to teach him but over the yrs I taught him well still my body would not do it... Never a problem with h.
WTF is wrong with me what was to love about that? I wish t wasnt a week away!

And all of that said I want to email him I actually looked up how to send an ecard anon ugggg
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Registered: 08-25-2010
Mon, 02-21-2011 - 6:38am
Because he validated that you are of worth, you were needed, wanted, beautiful, offered something in the world that he had to have - and by so doing filled your emotional (emo)/ego tanks and kept you coming back like a drug addict for refills. The issues within your marriage have nothing to do with hygiene, or looks, or even educaton or earning ability. it has to do with YOU feeling wanted, needed, worthy, beautiful..... We all miss it. We all miss someone reiterating our own value. Kudos for NOT sending anything to xAP.
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