... been NC for almost 2 months.. he msg
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... been NC for almost 2 months.. he msg
| Fri, 11-20-2009 - 12:01am |
Hey... Feeling the shakes now.. and I am so angry at myself that I am letting this man effect me the way he does. We haven't spoken in 2 months.. He msg'd me. (WHY?) I dont get why... anyway.. Just petty talk. I did respond. Went back and forth a couple of times. I did cut it short. Brushed him off.. I wanted so bad to keep talking but I stopped myself. Trust me he was not persistent to talk to me after I brushed him off. Now with this happening I feel like I will never recover from this. I dont get it! Sad thing is I still want to be with him and I am not being with him for the reason of saving myself. But really if I will continue to be this upset I am still robbing myself from making new memories :(

V~
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Thank you so much for your reply. I really needed that. I feel so weak now since I have heard from him. Pathetic how it takes so little for him to make me feel that way :S. All day all I could do is reminisce the 3 years and all the convo's we had and of course the "connection" physical and emotional :(. Good news is I have nothing left of him which includes e-mails, texts, phone msgs. DELETED all of the on I think the 3rd day of NC. I do have a silly question. Why does he bother. I am sure that he went onto the next. My guess anyway! I think I am confusing it with "awe he is missing me" is that so? I will stick to this. I do have to admit and I really hate to admit. I wanted to msg him saying sorry for being so abrupt and rude. I am not usually that mean to him. I have told him MANY MANY times I do not want to continue but I always break and message him. Which may I add I am always the instigator. This time it was him?!? weird.
Sorry If I am jumping all over the place and not sticking to one point but this post kinda gives you a glimpse as to what is going on in my head!! Its all over the place.
I love this board and so happy to have found it! Hope you guys dont get tired of me :) LOL
Talk soon
V
You didn't die without him over those 2 months and don't need him back in your life now.
They all come back, because it's not the same without us. Wife is still nagging, their kids are still ungrateful beasts, their marriages still suck, and sex is not the same without drama. So they think they'd give you a call and see if you're still interested in their baby carrots, since that's all they have to offer and it was enough for you before. Ha!
Grats on 2 months and you go girl!
Hugs,
GbG