Better day Yesterday...

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Registered: 04-05-2010
Better day Yesterday...
Sun, 04-11-2010 - 10:00am

First off ladies...everytime I post from now on, please take it as a HUGE Thank You to all of you who have responded to my posts. I have read every word carefully and with an open mind, I have gained wisdom as well as understanding. I ahve learned I am not alone and that I CAN do this. For that I am grateful beyond words.


My horrible Friday ended and Saturday arrived...so that is POSITIVE right??? I was up early, played in a volleyball tournament all day and had a blast! We made it to the finals, so it was a great competition. Won't say xAP didn't creep into my head at various points throughout the day (I had to drive by his house twice to get to my destination...) BUT, all in all it was so nice to ENJOY my day. I came home, made a batch of Bruchetta, H and I rented a movie, kids went to their friends for a few hours, we drank wine, and enjoyed our evening together. So it was all good...


Day 41... still blocked and deleted, but have not totally fought the urge to check out FB...please don't scold me, I am well aware of what I am doing to myself. He is NOT on my friends anymore...I removed him months ago, but unfortunately I can still type his name and read his wall. I am working on that, it truly is the only means I ahve left to get rid of.... unless I get rid of H who talks about xAP periodically because they are friends and still see each other. I will have to learn and live with this, as their friendship will always be part of our lives. They are not "close" but see each other regularly.


Anyway, just wanted to tell those who responded that your words are helping...and I am really working at this. Thank You