A big thank you from all the lurkers
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A big thank you from all the lurkers
| Tue, 01-25-2011 - 8:09pm |
This board is like a safety net for me and I know there are so many others like me who do not post but come here for strength, inspiration and hope I have posted here in the past and have had such wonderful advice. Sadly I chose to fall again but I know there will come a day I will be done for good. I am tired of losing myself. I cannot be a regular poster as I am not ready to take that final step. I just want to thank you all and ask if you will send prayers of strenghth and resolve my way. Many blessings to you as you go forward in your healing.

I'm sorry you are choosing to fall again.
If you have the strength to read what we write here - THEN YOU ARE READY. VERY few of us were ready to end our affairs, we just KNEW we had to.
YOU can't unlearn insights. You can hide, but the knowledge of what you are participating in will haunt you.
COME ON.
Love yourself enough to demand a better life.
YOU won't be alone.
WE HAVE ALL FELT what you are feeling.
Much care,
TU.
Little Lady,
I was like you...I kept coming back to EAS and reading.
TU is right, I should have said we can't lead you were you are not WILLING to go. I wasn't ready to end my A, but knew I couldn't live the double life anymore.
Endings is not new to you. I remember you being here before when you ended your A and then, of course, you disappeared. Now we know why. Many slip and fall, and so deep again, that the next climb looks so much higher than the last. The reality of it though, is that since you have been down in this hole before, you already know what rocks to grab onto, and where to place your feet so climbing back out is not nearly as treacherous as you are imagining it to be.
Lurking is find and dandy, but doing (taking action) is the only way where someday you can really thank the posters here for helping you dig your way out again.
We'll wait for your return, and I hope and pray it will be soon. He's not worth it, honey. Living openly and honestly in the light of day is. You are so much more than AP's amusement. I wish you could see this, but as long as you continue rolling around in darkness, your vision will remain impaired.
(((Hugs))
Dear Lord,
Please wrap your loving arms around LLL and give her the strength and courage to face her future with integrity and resolve.
And when you take the jump and end up here, we will welcome you with open arms.
Dangit Dee, you made me cry...
Beautiful
LLL...peace, love and acceptance
Hope to see you back here soon. Really, really soon. As in, say a few hours from now? ;)
Just as TU said: none of us were ever 'ready', some of us were even very, very unwilling - and yet, here we are. Took the plunge, walked through those dark woods and some of us are out the other side. Some of us are still wandering through, but the trees aren't as thick and
'It may be that when we no longer know what to do,
We have come to our real work,
And that when we no longer know which way to go,
We have begun our real journey'
- Wendell Berry