Lolly,
I LOVE the scab analogy. It is so right on...I don't believe that we will ever "forget", but when we allow the wounds to heal properly, that new skin (the new "us"!) has a chance to develop into a healthier state. If we continually pick (obsess) we don't give that healing a fair chance. I have to admit, that I, too, am a scab picker. Lately, I haven't been too upset about all of this...I was feeling great last night after freeing myself of the stinking monster. But that doesn't mean I am not tempted to pick at my scabs. Healing hurts. Plain and simple. But the healing is such an amazing process, and I am happy to say that I think I have turned a MAJOR corner in that process. Lolly, you are an inspiration to me...reading your posts and seeing your stressors - wow. You have come a long way and I think your strength is commendable. I know that the lows are there, too, you aren't invincible, but you are incredible!!
Thank you SO much again for the scab analogy.
Hugs,
Hearts<3
It always amazes me that this board "produces" exactly what you need, when you need it. I just happened to scroll down on EAS the night you were talking about and saw your empty post with the subject "nevermind" and knew that I needed to check up on you.
Last night, it was late - I was exhausted after making food all night for this Sunday - all alone. Friday nights are hard for me - the kids go to their dad's and I am still not ready to dive into any "social" life. I started to feel sorry for myself, so I did what I knew I had to do - came here. :) Reading your words helped ME right back and for that I thank YOU. Your post was amazing and just what I needed last night.
((((lolly))))
I am impressed and so proud of you.
(((Lolly)))
It always amazes me that this board "produces" exactly what you need, when you need it. I just happened to scroll down on EAS the night you were talking about and saw your empty post with the subject "nevermind" and knew that I needed to check up on you.
Last night, it was late - I was exhausted after making food all night for this Sunday - all alone. Friday nights are hard for me - the kids go to their dad's and I am still not ready to dive into any "social" life. I started to feel sorry for myself, so I did what I knew I had to do - came here. :) Reading your words helped ME right back and for that I thank YOU. Your post was amazing and just what I needed last night.
Bodhi