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Broke NC
| Fri, 01-14-2011 - 4:43pm |
So angry with myself. I wrote to ask him about relatives in Australia - just an excuse. Long story. It's over, anyway, although we chatted back and forth and he said he wanted to stay friends. Yeah whatever. Too drained to think much about that right now. Sorry...I really did think I was doing fine.

Lulu-
Also Lulu-
Hey,
Many of us broke NC a couple of times on the road to Getting it right. You're running in a circle though LuLu. The last time you broke NC I asked you to reflect on what your motivation was ...
Your words:
You know, even as I sit here with my head in my hands and my heart feeling like it wants to burst...I am so, so, flipping grateful that my emotional mess is not due to my DH finding out about the A.
I have had no D-Day. I could have. And then how much worse would it be?
Dr has told me to take it easy due to the high blood pressure and so I am calling in sick at work tonight and will spend the night with hubby. He makes me laugh.
Misslulu,
I too broke NC with an excuse and had to look at the reason.
Oh Miss Lu Lu I feel for you
Fellow NC breaker here. You REALLY have to look at what you wanted. For me its the 'fix'. I want that feeling again. I dont want him per se - I want the feeling- does that make sense.
Contacting him DOES NOT GIVE YOU THAT FEELING anymore! The feeling was a fantasy- the natural release of hormones and chemicals when someone pays you attention. It wasnt about you. It wasnt about him.
You have to look at why you wnat the feeling- and what you can do to fill that void yourself. I also have high blood pressure- just started medication. the stress of constant disappointment isnt worth your health honey. Stay beside the man who makes you laugh- leave the foolishness alone.
Iggyxx
ah Lulu,
aw Miss LuLu - I'm there with you. I broke contact the other day myself during a weak lonely moment and I regretted it immediately also. Now I'm starting over again. It's important for us to figure out the why. I wanted the fix too , to see if I was still on his mind, etc. It was so stupid and silly because I didn't get the fix. It didn't work and I felt like SHLIZZLE. I do get it how you're feeling now cuz I'm right there too. If you want to private message me, go right ahead hon.
Misslulu, I agree 100% with Iggy - Stay beside the man who makes you laugh... leave the foolishness alone.