Broken NC

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Registered: 01-19-2004
Broken NC
Mon, 01-19-2004 - 10:55pm
In regards to NC I broke it after a year. I feel really stupid. Last time I got an email from him was a year ago this month. He said he was busy and I would always be a special friend and he would do his best to keep in touch. That is so pathetic. I fell for it. I sent him an email back telling him I thought of him as a special friend too. The stupid thing was I thought we were friends. I thought we would have stayed in touch occasionally. After checking my email on a monthly basis for nine months (after last contact) I knew he was blowing me off. He never emailed again and I never emailed him. So, I let my email expire after the 90 day period. I was really proud of myself.

I stopped checking my email. January of 2004 comes around and I get bored, I reinstate my email. Then I go on messenger and pull up his ID (mistake) and he is on line. I debated within myself for two weeks whether to IM him or not. So I did when he was on one night and he didn't respond. I thought foolishly in my head if we were friends I would say hello and he would respond. In a strange way I was relieved though. It reinforced things in my head that he is a jerk. If I would have listened to my instincts 14 months ago I wouldn't be here writing this. Live and learn!