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| Sun, 10-25-2009 - 2:07pm |
Hi all -
It's been a long time since I posted, but I've been lurking and reading. Quick recap of my story: A with boss which he ended when he was afraid I was getting too serious about him. I've had a very hard time getting over him and the A, there have been no fishing attempts on his part, and it is OVER.
My H never found out about the A - he was away at school. However, with each passing day, I found

Hi Cowsgirl,
I haven't posted here for a long time either but I feel like I need to respond to your post.
Hey cowsgirl :)
I really admire your courage.
Hi Cowsgirl
Firstly I must commend you on being so brave, it takes a lot of courage to do what you did.
Hello, Gull -
Of course I remember you and all the support you gave (and continue to give) me!
I never planned on a C-day, but I found myself physically sick and crying most of the time, so it almost had to happen. H would have figured out something was wrong, but he never suspected this. Now I'm physically sick with the pain I have caused him and wishing I could bear it for him.
I know this will all make me a better person in the end. I only pray that I am going to have the chance to be a better wife.
Thanks -
CG
Clarity,
There must be a very fine line between bravery and stupidity that I straddle a thousand times daily. There probably was very little chance that H would have found out accidentally, but I just couldn't live with myself thinking I had to lie to him about something so awful for the rest of our lives. I haven't had much time to look at the boards yet - between work and being verbally beaten up
Apple.
Thanks for giving me some hope. I love my husband and don't want him to leave me - not because I'm afraid of being alone, but because I want to be with him. My gut feeling is that he will give me another chance. It just might be a very long road until he makes that decision, and he knows it is completely his to make. I've given up my rights at this point, so if he feels he needs to leave, I will have to let him do it. I'm going to start crying just writing this, and I'm at work, so I'd better stop now. But thanks so much for your story.
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CG,
It's funny how these boards call out to those off us who have "left" at the most opportune of times.......I have to doubt that there is such a thing as coincidence.
First, kudos to you for doing what you had to do to be true to yourself and your life....stepping out and telling your H is unimaginable for most (myself included).
CG,
My H had a VERY difficult time with the fact that I waited until a year after the A ended to tell him.