Can't get him out of my head

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Registered: 02-07-2004
Can't get him out of my head
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Thu, 04-29-2004 - 10:02pm
He has been in my thoughts all day. I guess I am obsessing! I feel empty and alone. These kind of days seem so so long. I am trying so hard to keep the NC. I feel weak and so alone. I guess this is just one of those lonely nights but all the memories keep running through my mind. Hoping tomorrow will be better.
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Registered: 09-09-2003
Fri, 04-30-2004 - 8:54am
Hi Lexy, please take care of yourself honey. Find some things to do that will make you feel happy and fulfilled, either joining a gym or yoga class (that really helps with your inner peace). Anything to keep your mind off MM!!

BTDT believe me. He put me thru 8 weeks NC this fall and then just when I was accepting the fact it was over, he got in touch again. I had gone thru all the phases, thinking about him all the time, crying sometimes, feeling down and then being just plain mad at him. But during that time, I signed up for some classes in a hobby I enjoy, started with the yoga and continued at my gym. I was starting to feel happy with myself for the most part when he got ahold of me again.

Now my heart has been hardened against him since that last time. And now I am into almost another 3 weeks of NC from him. Still trying to decide exactly what I will say to him if/when he gets in touch again. But this time around, I am no longer thinking about him 24/7. No tears have been shed either. I alternate between not even thinking about him, and then when I do, alot of the time I just feel anger at the way he's treating me. If you can get yourself to the anger stage, you will definitely be well on the road to recovery!! Take care,

Dusty

xxxx