Change is in the air?
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Change is in the air?
| Mon, 03-22-2004 - 1:59pm |
I saw XMM at the little league field yesterday. I was my usual happy self, said hello as he walked by and then went on to have a blast with my team (we won). What's different is: seeing him yesterday had little impact on me. It was like i almost felt nothing (say a 2 instead of an 8 or 9). Last year, i used to watch him coach his team from afar while i coached mine. I didn't notice this until i got home last night, that I think i only looked over at his game once (and what's important here, is i wasn't try hard not to look--i just never thought about it!). I found out later, XMM spent a good deal of time talking with my H (who was also there), but i was so busy and entrenched in having fun coaching my boys, i didn't even notice all of this. I think this is progress!
I handled myself beautifully over baseball business (as i am second in charge of this) with him. Thanks Chris for your suggestion on this: I will always, and always have, handled myself maturely when i had to deal with him on these matters.
So, maybe, just maybe, the mantras, prayers, NC is working? It was so werid not to feel much at all. I think that is progress.

Jazzdiva
Hang in there. I think we are getting better.
xoxox
Clarice