Thank you - I know what you are saying is right - everything was just so ugh yesterday - I borrowed the following from you - and taped it to my mirror... "Rejection doesn't mean we are unloveable" I need to stop taking things so personally - I know it isn't about me and that i'm going to have to take risks - I suppose it's a side affect of just having been burnt repeatedly by friends and family alike. So onward and upward! Thanks so much Always for the reminder to work on loving myself. :)
Interesting twist NS - about the word wrong - and I think you are spot on. It gave me good food for thought - and even some relief. I think it is one of the hardest parts of the A - to recognize that while the actions we participated in were "wrong" because of unavailability on both our parts (in my case) - that it isn't a mistake or a regret - it is part of my journey to changing the parts of my life to who I want to become. Some months ago my xAP called me his regret, his biggest mistake and it devastated me. Even tho we had ended it hurt all over again, not because what he was saying - but because of how it registered in MY mind. Definite journaling excercise in my future!!
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Thanks for that
Alwayst, thank you so much for your post!
Lolly,
I wanted to come back to this, because I posted