Closure

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Registered: 10-21-2003
Closure
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Thu, 03-18-2004 - 11:17pm
So, we've had no contact for a little while, probably going on two weeks or so (actually we spoke on the phone & briefly saw each other last wednesday). We've passed each other a couple times in the halls yesterday and he called and left me a message. I didn't respond (yahhhh...good for me...but soooo hard). I decided to write to him...so here it is...

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Hi there...

I got your message. I didn't call back because I'm trying to avoid you :( I think it's finally run its course. I was going to try to avoid the situation altogether, but didn't think it would be fair (or very nice) because I wouldn't want you to do the same to me. Besides, it's a little bit of closure for me. I feel bad saying these things over email, but it's better/easier this way. I do miss you like crazy, but I know the feelings will fade in time and I also think you know where I stand with all of this craziness so there's no need to expand.

I wish you all the best in love and luck....

See you in passing,

Saaaad, but glad

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Now, I'm just crying....

Last week and for part of this week, I was strong...happy, confident, at the top of my game, but then, this morning when I got his message...I felt sooo weak, sad, and broke down in tears a couple times. It's going to get easier...I know it. I liked it better when he avoided me. It was easier....

But, again, all these feelings will pass soon. I went out on a date the other night...it went well...but it wasn't him. I've started going to the gym and a personal trainer is helping me out...he's into me...but again....it's not MM. I hope I can get past this soon...there's a whole new world (healthy world) out there waiting for me to grab it by the arms.....

I can do it.........


Edited 3/19/2004 12:21 am ET ET by bhappy2176

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Registered: 09-26-2003
In reply to: bhappy2176
Fri, 03-19-2004 - 7:14am
Yes, you can do it and good for you for taking steps in the right direction.

Thoughts of xmm will fade as you make new ones to replace them.

Good luck.