A complete waste of my time...
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A complete waste of my time...
| Mon, 07-26-2010 - 10:40am |
I almost posted last night about how I had one trigger after the other this weekend but I decided to wait. I did instead send a trigger venting email to

GMLB -
What a great post. I have struggled with the thought of wasted time a lot - especially since I pathetically stuck it out for so long with XAP. When I think about it now, it really boggles my mind.
Something you said jumped out at me - wondering if you turned back time if you would have engaged in the affair. I'm a big believer in everything happening for a reason. Even for me, there is a reason I didn't give up until now.
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I feel the same way. I have a feeling I'm going to like the woman I am becoming. I miss the good parts of my personality that XAP squashed like a bug. But they are still there, and I'm slowly getting them back. An like you, I have learned SO much about myself and what is necessary for a healthy relationship. I have a long way to go, but I feel like the life I am headed toward is better than what I had before XAP. I wasn't UNhappy in my M, but there was definitely something missing.
I'm so glad you shared your epiphany :) Thank you!
Bodhi
GMLB,
Sounds like you are really getting your life back! Good for you! I'm loving your post because although you had triggers you realized that's all they were and you are moving on and past them.
My
Hi Ladies
WOW i feel insync today.....
GMLB tell me about triggers please..... i actually talked to xAP (when he was AP) about triggers, i never thought his name was common (popular?) till i met him and in the last few months... OMG, there are roads named after him, surnames and christian names, radio presenters, sportsmen, you name it the world and his wife seem to answer to the same name... i have to drive on this one road when i do deliveries at work ( at least 6 x a week) and have to go down this ONE road - cant detour as a cul-de-sac.... yesterday i actually forgot to notice it till i was leaving again
New Choices, New Chapter,
New Challenges,