A Confusing day - Need insights
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| Wed, 05-04-2005 - 4:08pm |
The end of this month will be a year since I ended my affair. For those who don't know my story, I work with him...just the two of us in this very small office. <<>>
I have remained firm in my conviction, and owe this board and the "AllSides" message board for saving my wretched behind when weak moments sneak up on me...I am forturnate to have access to all the sites here at work and make use of them on a daily basis when needed (usually I am so busy I don't need to check them out until I get home ;)
For background, first I want to tell you all that I have been through all of the stages; denial, anger, depression, indifference, and finally acceptance for what *we* had done, and now *we* are finally back to a sort-of, kind-of friendship that makes life a littler easier during the work day. Letting go of all of that pent up rage and anger took a very long time...I couldn't even look at him, let alone talk to him. He knew he had hurt me by ever crossing that line in the first place, so he gave me all the space I needed to get over his sorry a**. In time, I was finally able to laugh at his stupid jokes again. ANYWAY......
He just left a little while ago to go home to put one of his dogs to sleep. (She is really sick). I have this damn lump in my throat and I would like some insights as to why I am feeling so sad right now. Is it because I couldn't (or wouldn't allow myself to) console him? Is it because I couldn't tell him how sorry I am out of fear of tearing up? Have I turned into a cold-hearted bit*h? I KNOW how much he loves this dog. He has had her as long as I have worked here....going on 16 years. This sucks.....I can honestly say that I don't love this man anymore, so why is this bothering me so much?
Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. Thanks,
Id

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(((((FEENY-BEAN!!!)))))
So good to see you, woman! <<<>>>
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It's easy to pass them when you are the one who writes them :) So far, I've got a 4.0 GPA.
Today he's on my a*swipe list. Pouting around here like his best friend died...Ooooppp, it *WAS* his best friend, poor little pooch.
Gosh, I'm a terrible person,
Iddy-poo,
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Will you ever shut UP and take a COMPLIMENT?! LMAO
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Business as usual LOL
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If ya really want to help him, then find the Yellow Pages, open it to Pet Bereavement Counseling section and leave it on his desk. Now you've done for him what you'd do for anyone in the grocery store.
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Oh the WORST!!! That's why I loves ya! ;)
~Feeny Fanny Foo~
(((Feeny-Fanny-Foo???))))
HAH!
Now I'm the who's LMAO!!!
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