---- 'It may be that when we no longer know what to do, We have come to our real work, And that when we no longer know which way to go, We have begun our real journey' - Wendell Berry
I have been so overcome with emotion all day I have not be able to find the words to express my gratitude, not only for the amazing show of support and praise exhibited here for me personally....but by the all around generosity of this amazing community and its commitment to healing what still seems to be a never ending wound.
To come here today, after another weekend hiatus due to family obligations, and be completely uplifted by all of your words of support... well it has left me practically Speechless! Now I know what you are all thinking.... Foggy...with nothing to say? Yeah right!!! So even though it is the middle of the day, and not some crazy hour in the middle of the night in which I usually do my best thinking, I will give my best shot at expressing my gratitude to each of you who took the time to congratulate me, and pick up my still struggling spirit! I am sure that tonight, once the emotions have settled and the thoughts that have been spinning all afternoon have come to rest, I will post MY thoughts on this accomplishment and what it means to me. Until then...here we go
Iddy, You are right in that I was so broken when I arrived here, and taking the time today to reflect on where I was then and what this place has helped me to become today has moved me deeply. I agree that there are many men(and women) that are much to proud to admit when they are suffering and need help. For me, I knew right away that the wisdom I found here was priceless, and had no other choice but to surrender to its teachings, and have faith that it will guide me from the darkest place in my life and back into the light!
No the road was not easy...but with all the wisdom here blowing me in the right direction...it would have been impossible not to ride them! And don't you ever think that I don't know in my heart, and in my soul that it all starts and ends with you My captain! You always find a way to bring me back from my lurking tendencies...and this time you did it with Fireworks!!! They are beautiful...and although I would have been just fine with the flowers...but I wish you could have seen my face when I got the fireworks!! THANK YOU!
Your words from my first post still forever run in my mind...and every day I get closer to excepting each and every one of those things you mentioned to me. You have been an amazingly supportive friend who has always been right there if I needed you. I would not have made it this far without your support.
still have trouble believing I can be an inspiration to anyone. But I do know that if I can ever help anyone see the other side of an argument, to change a perspective even slightly, then I have done justice unto the world.
Thanks again IDDY! ((((HUGE HUGS)))....but who exactly you calling a gentleman? :)
Dearest Bodhi! So glad to still be breaking wind for each other (go ahead and Laugh NCx). And yes, in my first of many attempts to be most respectful to the wonderful women here I owe the Foggy persona to you as well! :)
Yes I am out of the fog now...seeing so crystal clearly the negative consequences of my actions, and wishing like hell every day for an ease of pain on everyone involved. I am glad to have helped you in return for all that you have given to me my friend. I would not have made it to 6 MONTHS!!! HOLY CRAP 6 MONTHS!! without your help. Without a doubt there were times I kept NC simply because I did not want to disappoint you, or the other amazingly strong women on this board. Your words one time in what was surely one of my weakest moments in the last 6 months have consistently propelled me forward. Thank you so much...I will never launch that bomb and the fungi are safe! :)
I am proud of you too! My short 10 months was always so easy to put into perspective when I was made so aware of the residual pain that lasted from how long you were at the mercy of someone who could never return the love that you have to offer!
Much much love my pedal pal! peace&light Foggy
Thanks for helping me to remember that being calm, and peaceful, is a wonderful way to live. You do so much in helping to keep those around here grounded, and I am glad to contribute to that atmosphere as well.
Edited to add:
Even reading these words I realize that nothing written could ever measure up to the gratitude I have for having you in my life.
Alwayst, Thank you so much for your kind words and your truly never ending care and support for me as a person and as a friend. There have been times when I have literally felt you carying me through a hard time via your ability to express yourself so wonderfully.
I know I never got to say congrats to you...but I do want you to know that I am so very very proud of your accomplishments, and your perseverance to give yourself the gift of a better life!
To inspire someone like you is an HONOR. I mean that. I am so envious of the way that you are able to express your feelings on this board, and have worked so hard to conquer each and every one of them. And for that I thank you!
Thanks for the congrats...as always (he he) I look forward to your next post.... every one of them is a gem! Best of luck in your continued growth as a person, wife, and wonderful spirit!
Hey Heartache, Thank you so much! My progress is so much a statement as to the healing power of this board. I have shuddered a few times today thinking back to those earliest days when I was MMLIF. The pain was so raw, and yet was just the beginning of this journey.
Thank you for appreciating my posts....please know the feeling is overly mutual. I have to agree with what TU said in another post...you have just been KILLING IT lately! I tell you I have struggled with my inability to be able to contribute all that much around here the last few months as RL overwhelmed me....but to hear from someone like you that any of my words can provide some wisdom and insight is nothing less then humbling!
Thank you for taking the time to celebrate with me today hearts! My best to you peace&light Foggy
Thanks DEE!! Wow so few words from you...makes me know I am doing well. Maybe that is one reason I always made sure to walk the straight line...fear of the wrath of DEE! :)
In all seriousness, Thank YOU for all you do for this board...and being a personal inspiration for me. Being able to go back and read your journey (back when this was possible before stupid I village changed this option) was amazingly helpful in my journey.
Thanks for always supporting me, and helping me to believe in my contributions around here...I appreciate it so fully. Now if I could just somehow squeeze some more info about your amazing journey to Africa (a place that with all my travels I have never been) and maybe even a picture...that would be perfect!
Thanks for celebrating with me my friend. So glad you are willing to stick around after so long in putting in your time here.
Dear Jen, Thank you so very much for your kind words. As always the accepting of them comes from a place of such deep respect. I am so glad that not only can you feel the calmness that emanates from me, but appreciate it too. This was a big part of me that I gave up COMPLETELY while entrenched in the A. I became a Tasmanian devil of emotions...unable to tap into the peace and calm that I know flows through my being...and flows through us all. I am so indebted to the wonderful women here who helped me to clear the fog so that part of me could again be free to express itself.
Thanks for all of your support Jen, through everything. You too are a pretty wonderful spirit. I look at all you have accomplished through the adversity you have faced and I am in awe.
I did have an Amazing day...and I hope you did too! Best of luck in your continued journey my friend. peace&light Foggy
Oh TU!! Of course you would post one of my all time favorite songs. And hearing it today..the lyrics cut into my heart even deeper.
Thank you for all the wisdom you have given me and to all that you contribute to this board. As I have said before, from the moment I arrived you inspired me. No matter what I was feeling, it was always so comforting to be able to read one of your posts...and know that different feelings awaited me just up this ending road!
thank you also for all of the support you have given me throughout my time here. Especially in your outright total support through my illness. You are an amazingly compassionate and caring person, and I am so happy, lucky and honored to call you a friend. From it's very first moments, you have no doubt helped to shape 2011 into a year of Triumph. I can never thank you enough.
Thanks for the song....and bringing the music to the party of the Music Man!!!
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Well done Foggy!
Congratulations on Super Tweenerville!
Wooohoooo Foggy!!! You must have your PhD in getting sh*t done ;)
'It may be that when we no longer know what to do,
We have come to our real work,
And that when we no longer know which way to go,
We have begun our real journey'
- Wendell Berry
I have been so overcome with emotion all day I have not be able to find the words to express my gratitude, not only for the amazing show of support and praise exhibited here for me personally....but by the all around generosity of this amazing community and its commitment to healing what still seems to be a never ending wound.
To come here today, after another weekend hiatus due to family obligations, and be completely uplifted by all of your words of support... well it has left me practically Speechless! Now I know what you are all thinking.... Foggy...with nothing to say? Yeah right!!! So even though it is the middle of the day, and not some crazy hour in the middle of the night in which I usually do my best thinking, I will give my best shot at expressing my gratitude to each of you who took the time to congratulate me, and pick up my still struggling spirit! I am sure that tonight, once the emotions have settled and the thoughts that have been spinning all afternoon have come to rest, I will post MY thoughts on this accomplishment and what it means to me. Until then...here we go
Iddy,
You are right in that I was so broken when I arrived here, and taking the time today to reflect on where I was then and what this place has helped me to become today has moved me deeply. I agree that there are many men(and women) that are much to proud to admit when they are suffering and need help. For me, I knew right away that the wisdom I found here was priceless, and had no other choice but to surrender to its teachings, and have faith that it will guide me from the darkest place in my life and back into the light!
No the road was not easy...but with all the wisdom here blowing me in the right direction...it would have been impossible not to ride them! And don't you ever think that I don't know in my heart, and in my soul that it all starts and ends with you My captain! You always find a way to bring me back from my lurking tendencies...and this time you did it with Fireworks!!! They are beautiful...and although I would have been just fine with the flowers...but I wish you could have seen my face when I got the fireworks!! THANK YOU!
Your words from my first post still forever run in my mind...and every day I get closer to excepting each and every one of those things you mentioned to me. You have been an amazingly supportive friend who has always been right there if I needed you. I would not have made it this far without your support.
still have trouble believing I can be an inspiration to anyone. But I do know that if I can ever help anyone see the other side of an argument, to change a perspective even slightly, then I have done justice unto the world.
Thanks again IDDY! ((((HUGE HUGS)))....but who exactly you calling a gentleman? :)
peace&light
Foggy
Dearest Bodhi!
So glad to still be breaking wind for each other (go ahead and Laugh NCx). And yes, in my first of many attempts to be most respectful to the wonderful women here I owe the Foggy persona to you as well! :)
Yes I am out of the fog now...seeing so crystal clearly the negative consequences of my actions, and wishing like hell every day for an ease of pain on everyone involved. I am glad to have helped you in return for all that you have given to me my friend. I would not have made it to 6 MONTHS!!! HOLY CRAP 6 MONTHS!! without your help. Without a doubt there were times I kept NC simply because I did not want to disappoint you, or the other amazingly strong women on this board. Your words one time in what was surely one of my weakest moments in the last 6 months have consistently propelled me forward. Thank you so much...I will never launch that bomb and the fungi are safe! :)
I am proud of you too! My short 10 months was always so easy to put into perspective when I was made so aware of the residual pain that lasted from how long you were at the mercy of someone who could never return the love that you have to offer!
Much much love my pedal pal!
peace&light
Foggy
Thanks for helping me to remember that being calm, and peaceful, is a wonderful way to live. You do so much in helping to keep those around here grounded, and I am glad to contribute to that atmosphere as well.
Edited to add:
Even reading these words I realize that nothing written could ever measure up to the gratitude I have for having you in my life.
Thank you so much for your kind words and your truly never ending care and support for me as a person and as a friend. There have been times when I have literally felt you carying me through a hard time via your ability to express yourself so wonderfully.
I know I never got to say congrats to you...but I do want you to know that I am so very very proud of your accomplishments, and your perseverance to give yourself the gift of a better life!
To inspire someone like you is an HONOR. I mean that. I am so envious of the way that you are able to express your feelings on this board, and have worked so hard to conquer each and every one of them. And for that I thank you!
Thanks for the congrats...as always (he he) I look forward to your next post.... every one of them is a gem! Best of luck in your continued growth as a person, wife, and wonderful spirit!
peace&light
foggy
Thank you so much! My progress is so much a statement as to the healing power of this board. I have shuddered a few times today thinking back to those earliest days when I was MMLIF. The pain was so raw, and yet was just the beginning of this journey.
Thank you for appreciating my posts....please know the feeling is overly mutual. I have to agree with what TU said in another post...you have just been KILLING IT lately! I tell you I have struggled with my inability to be able to contribute all that much around here the last few months as RL overwhelmed me....but to hear from someone like you that any of my words can provide some wisdom and insight is nothing less then humbling!
Thank you for taking the time to celebrate with me today hearts! My best to you
peace&light
Foggy
Wow so few words from you...makes me know I am doing well. Maybe that is one reason I always made sure to walk the straight line...fear of the wrath of DEE! :)
In all seriousness, Thank YOU for all you do for this board...and being a personal inspiration for me. Being able to go back and read your journey (back when this was possible before stupid I village changed this option) was amazingly helpful in my journey.
Thanks for always supporting me, and helping me to believe in my contributions around here...I appreciate it so fully. Now if I could just somehow squeeze some more info about your amazing journey to Africa (a place that with all my travels I have never been) and maybe even a picture...that would be perfect!
Thanks for celebrating with me my friend. So glad you are willing to stick around after so long in putting in your time here.
Peace&light
Foggy
Thank you so very much for your kind words. As always the accepting of them comes from a place of such deep respect. I am so glad that not only can you feel the calmness that emanates from me, but appreciate it too. This was a big part of me that I gave up COMPLETELY while entrenched in the A. I became a Tasmanian devil of emotions...unable to tap into the peace and calm that I know flows through my being...and flows through us all. I am so indebted to the wonderful women here who helped me to clear the fog so that part of me could again be free to express itself.
Thanks for all of your support Jen, through everything. You too are a pretty wonderful spirit. I look at all you have accomplished through the adversity you have faced and I am in awe.
I did have an Amazing day...and I hope you did too! Best of luck in your continued journey my friend.
peace&light
Foggy
Of course you would post one of my all time favorite songs. And hearing it today..the lyrics cut into my heart even deeper.
Thank you for all the wisdom you have given me and to all that you contribute to this board. As I have said before, from the moment I arrived you inspired me. No matter what I was feeling, it was always so comforting to be able to read one of your posts...and know that different feelings awaited me just up this ending road!
thank you also for all of the support you have given me throughout my time here. Especially in your outright total support through my illness. You are an amazingly compassionate and caring person, and I am so happy, lucky and honored to call you a friend. From it's very first moments, you have no doubt helped to shape 2011 into a year of Triumph. I can never thank you enough.
Thanks for the song....and bringing the music to the party of the Music Man!!!
peace&light
Foggy
Foggy,
There are no other words I can say that have not been said here.
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