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|Thu, 08-16-2012 - 5:37pm|
Thank you all for your wonderful support. First off I am going to try really hard get through this without medication or counseling. I changed health insurance when I retired and the insurance does not pay for worthwhile meds or counseling.
So this is how I'm coping. First I have not initiated any contact and he has not contacted me. I read a lot of very helpful information in the healing library and read the posts on MAS and realized that everything I am thinking and has happened is very common. NOTHING is different with my A than anyone else (except paying for a room with quarters)...LOL
Since I tend to over analyze and obsess, I took a rubber band and put it on my wrist and snapped it whenever I thought of him. Here's the problem, I was getting welts on my wrist because I was snapping it so many times.
I went to see the movie Hope Springs and cried through the entire movie because this is how I got involved in an A in the first place having a marriage where H works all the time watches TV and takes me for granted.
I will keep everyone posted on my progress. And for those of you that are worried, I WILL NOT HARM MYSELF!