Dammit

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Registered: 02-02-2011
Dammit
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Thu, 02-17-2011 - 9:52am
I'm going to cry today I thought I was going to make it cuz I haven't I just drove by our spot waves of pain and I'm on way to work oh god why now...i want to text him and say I'm sorry for the way I left.
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Registered: 12-13-2010
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 10:03am

Breathe.

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Registered: 10-17-2010
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 10:06am

Happy,

Take a deep breath hun.

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Registered: 07-21-2009
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 10:06am

Sunrise is right.

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Registered: 07-17-2004
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 10:15am
LFH, I am so sorry you are feeling pain. Let this pain ride out because believe me it will. If you can, change your routines on where you drive to bypass those trigger spots for now. In time those spots will become just that, spots. I know this is tough work and if you can work hard to bring the focus on you and remove xap from your thoughts you will see how insignificant he is in your real life. What matters is you getting healthy and taking care of you, have you thought about going to therapy? It could be very beneficial in helping you discover reasons for your sadness. Take deep breathes and think of calming thoughts, if it helps put a big stop sign up in your mind when thoughts of xap creep in. Big hugs to you LFH:)
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Registered: 05-15-2010
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 11:48am

Hi Looking,

Dont do it !!

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Registered: 02-15-2011
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 12:16pm

LFH!!! Listen to MC and the others, don't do it. YOu will feel awful like I do. I feel like a complete weak, inadequate failure right now. I know what I have to do, but had to look, reply and then actually talk to him. I am

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Registered: 01-31-2011
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 12:27pm
MC Wrote :<<<>>>

This is what I say to myself whenever the urge to contact him strikes.

What could we possibly have to talk about?? It's over, done. Nothing to see here, folks.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 1:23pm

It is okay to cry. It hurts. Breathe through it. Do not give in to the false notion that contacting him is going to make you feel better. If you do, it will be like Ground Hog Day for you from here on out. You'll never break through the destructive cycle. You MUST push through the pain. You MUST look inward. Turn the focus on yourself. Tell youself that YOU want to heal and then take the appropriate action.

Big hugs to you,

~alwayst2

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 02-02-2011
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 1:25pm
Hi guys on a break at work still pretty sad but having to work is helping alot....i didnt break nc....i will be back when work is done
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Registered: 02-02-2011
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 4:04pm