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Day 1
| Wed, 02-18-2004 - 4:43pm |
I am officially documenting today as Day 1 of NC (even though I haven't corresponded with OM since Valentines Day). This is the day I feel most liberated from this horrible, destructive, cancer of a relationship.
I did create a Hallmark e-card for St. Patrick's Day (OM is Irish) that I am unable to delete now because I trashed the confirmation number (darn it). It is very casual except for the fact that I did sign it "Love" (shudder). Oh well, I guess I'll just have to let it go. The good thing is that I closed the primary e-mail account we used for correspondence, and I blocked his address from all of my other e-mail accounts. That way, if he does attempt to send me a note about the e-card, I won't get it and start feeling sappy again.
I have tried this NC thing several times before but always caved in because I felt miserable and lonely. Today though, "I FEEL GOOD" (na na na na na na na)

Keep strong in the NC conviction and you'll make it this time.