Day 9

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Registered: 10-05-2004
Day 9
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Fri, 11-19-2004 - 10:16am

Ok - so today is day 9. 9 days...that's the longest we have ever gone w/NC. Sad when I think about all the people who have gone weeks, months, even years. I'll get there someday too. The first week was easy - I guess because of the nasty blow out we had, but I found the last couple of days really hard. I don't really know why either. I can't figure out WHY NC would be so difficult with someone who was such a a@@hole the last time we spoke. Not even just then, but the last few months! WHY on earth would I miss talking to someone like that???

I keep trying to remind myself how shi&%y the last few months have been. That the euphoria I felt with xOM hasn't been there over 3 months! The friendship is long gone too. So, what am I hanging on to??

And things w/ H have been really great. We've both been working on issues that we have and it seems that our relationship is getting stronger. So again, WHY am I having such a hard time with NC???

I spoke to a friend yesterday and she said, "Are you ok? You have this 'sad vibe' to you". GREAT!!!

UGH

Diva

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Registered: 09-20-2004
In reply to: actressdiva
Fri, 11-19-2004 - 11:19am

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