Day 9 of No Contact and I am struggling like it is Day 1

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Registered: 11-16-2010
Day 9 of No Contact and I am struggling like it is Day 1
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Tue, 11-30-2010 - 6:09pm

I regard and have been regarded, as an intelligent, logical and strong woman. Why in the world am I struggling today? Why do I miss EMM? I really wish he was a @#$%$# when it ended, reading all the stories on this board I am certain it would have been a lot easier for me. I have been trying so hard to make myself believe that he was a

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Registered: 11-16-2010

Hi MC

Thank you so much for your kind words and support.

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Registered: 04-01-2010

(((Vanessa)))

I see you working this program and I see it working for you. Congratulations for remaining so strong during these tumultuous first weeks. I see you're already asking yourself some questions and starting to look at yourself. That is HUGE and the key to true "healing."

I urge you to make an appointment with a T to help you get to your core issues. Uncovering your issues and resolving them is the only way you are going to become healthy and whole. You are an intelligent and beautiful woman. My guess is despite your beauty, you've had self esteem issues your whole life. You will need to find out why. Validation comes from within. No man is ever going to hold the true key to your worth or happiness. I know. I've BTDT and am working on it. :smileyhappy:

You are not disgusting and

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-16-2010
Aaaaaww ((((Alwayst2))))

Thank you so much for your continuous support, your time, your love and your beautiful words. You are right, in the process of healing i'm revealing, i have stopped in my tracks and having a good look at myself. I never thought i needed T, but i know i do in order to move forward. Like you, i have had a subconscious fear of what will be revealed. I can relate so much to you when you say that you are tired of acting, IT'S EXHAUSTING.

Your 50 days of NC is fantastic, and as Foggy defines it, a true gift to yourself.

Again thank you so much for being here for me.

xxxoo
V888

PS. Yes i am not much of a sleeper, i'm also from another continent thought i would mention that if the times of my postings are confusing you :)

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