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| Fri, 02-18-2005 - 9:06pm |
hi all,
its almost the weekend and im home already, i hate being home and alone, it only been 2 weeks since OW ended it but still im having a hard time processing allof this
im nauseated and have a headache, i feel like doing nothing, i know i have to get out of the house in the next 3 days or else ill go nuts
ill be posting here , its my only way to cope for now, i cant even eat, i tried to cook but after i cook i cant eat, what a life, i have to admit that this is not going so good for me, i am not doing anything for myself, i let myself go downhill , i cant seem to control my emotions
i wish i can talk to the TV set
:(
max

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hi blue,
thanks, im gonna go out later, go to the bank, eat breakfast and go to a friends house to fix their internet connection, should keep me busy
ill be online later
thanks,max
Max
I am so sorry for what you are feeling and yes many can relate. I remember in the beginning it was a chore to do everyday things. But after I did them I was glad I did. I also tried to not be alone too much. Went to see friends or even just calling someone on the phone was better then being alone with my thoughts all the time.
But each day is a new day and it will get better..
Big Higs
hi cap,
thanks, im trying my best, right now my problem is sleep
max
hi all,
i just got an email from OW last nite , she told me she feels bad that i am sad and that she still thinks of me and that she was sorry for leading me on, nothing new that i dont know, she again told me why she cant be with me and why she ended it, same reason, nothing new
i was a mess last nite, felt so sad and lonely when i read it, she said she wants me to be happy , how can i be happy when she is gone, i feel like a fool now , im an emotional mess, she pulled me back again, even giving me some false hope
:(
max
~MAX~
You need to block her from your email. You need to block her from your cell phone. You need to avoid her at work. THIS is what we mean by NC. Every time she contacts you, you fall back into the pit of doldrums, and have to start clawing your way out again. If she cannot respect her *own* decision to end, then YOU HAVE TO! You are not going to get one inch closer to being healed until you disconnect from her on all levels. Now spend the rest of today looking for that self-respect that you lost somewhere during this relationship....
You can do this. It's time to really get serious with yourself,
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