Depression Medication

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Depression Medication
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Wed, 01-27-2010 - 12:28am
Today I am 9 days NC, haven't seen xAP since December 12th, dday was December 15th and my husband and I are going through what feels like hell.
I have had 5 weeks of IC and am 'starting' to get somewhere (turns out I have alot of issues re 'letting people in', 'accepting my husband's love unconditionally' and some other stuff going way way back) however the last 4 or 5 days I have slowly slipped downhill until I woke up this morning just wanting to sleep forever (even talking was an effort). I feel like I am just barely functioning, surviving, on the verge of tears every minute, unable to give my H what he needs (and he did not deserve one tiny bit of this whole horrible thing).
So...I made an appointment today with my doctor after my T session and my doctor has started me on depression medication after going through my symptoms etc etc (she knows about my A, I had to go and see her before starting IC). My husband and I have always been 'against' depression medication for various reasons, and in reality I have never ever experienced depression myself or even come close to it - that is....until finishing this A :(
Is anyone out there in a similar situation? Any advice/thoughts etc etc re depression medication in our situations? Is what I'm experiencing 'normal' in relation to where I am at in relation to NC? God I just want to not feel like this... :(

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Registered: 01-20-2010
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 4:30am
I tried citralopran (may have different name in states). It caused some anxiety for a week and then it settled. I was having anxiety attacks before
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Registered: 01-26-2010
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 6:36am
I was on a mild dosage from a previous problem I had encountered a few years ago.
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 10:05am

Hi, Best-
I went on paxil a few weeks after the break up. Paxil is a both anti anxiety and depression medication. It helped a lot once I got over about three weeks of being very sleepy and sometime queasy --but, that could be attributed to my severe depression as well. I feel a little numb, as in I don't cry even when I really feel like it, but the upshot is that I'm not a nervous, snippy, angry mess anymore. I also take Lunesta to sleep (it works so-so.)

I'm really glad you're in therapy,too. I wish I were but I can't afford it now.

I hope you're doing better very soon.

Cheers,
Dee

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Registered: 10-09-2008
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 11:17am

Hi Bestrong,

I can relate to your story in that I too had a d-day. It's been 31 days of hell and my marriage is in turmoil along with suffering severe withdrawl from my 2 year A, which my MM essential left my life without hesitation and I haven"t heard a single word since. It has been numbing.

I am currently on Effexor and find it to be extremely helpful. I have virtually no side effects and it has helped me with the depression, anxiety and the "panicky" feelings I get many times throughout the day. It has also helped me somewhat with the obsessing. Previously I was on Zoloft but had more side effects.

I really find the medication along with therapy to be essential to healing. In Feb. I am going to a week long intensive Love Addiction treatment program and they were adamant that I be on something for the depression and anxiety.

I know it feels like something you wouldn't otherwise "choose" to take, but it really will help you to "function" and get through that icky feeling of being not able to get out of bed.

Wishing you the best...LL

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Registered: 10-20-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 11:35am

Hey bestrong,


I went to the Dr. to get some anti-depression medicine and left with hormones!!!..Are you just laughing so hard!!!..I'm not really that old just having an

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Registered: 04-20-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 11:46am

New,
You make a few really good points. One, a Dr. can check you for hormones and thyroid issues - both of which can really contribute to mood swings and general malaise, and should not be overlooked when investigating reasons for depression and anxiety. Two, dealing with emotions as they come up is also beneficial and great if you can do it without the help of meds -- however, I'd like to add that, sometimes, we really need medication to get our chemical balance back to a healthier place so that we can focus on the issues and are not stuck in the quagmire of depression and unable to deal. Still, one must always be alert and conscious that she is not _masking_ feelings or self-medicating to avoid dealing with the issues. For example, over use of alcohol, drugs, or (in my case) serious dependency on bubblebaths and daydreaming! ha. Please, everyone, keep in mind that some anti-anxiety medication and depression medication increases thoughts of suicide and depression and if you ever feel those thoughts or feelings creeping in, please, please, discuss it with your family and doctor and don't ignore it.

Better days ahead!
Dee

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Registered: 10-20-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 12:04pm

You are so right on!


You always seem to put all out there on paper so much better than I do.

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 12:34pm

thank you! but that's not true!! (giggle, blush).
Take the day, New!

xo
Dee

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Registered: 01-26-2010
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 4:26pm

I have been on wellbutrin since my first A went awry two years ago.

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Registered: 05-18-2007
Wed, 01-27-2010 - 6:30pm

I've also been "against" depression medicatations. Been on and off them since age 12. I have a chemical imbalance for many years that stablizes when on the right medications. It's never perfect as like everyone else have bumps in life. I will likely be on these my entire life to function well. When I've tried to come off them, my world spins. I've come to accept that it is needed just like pills are needed to cure other ailments.


Since you say you've not had a history of depression, yours probably is circumstantial (im not a dr though). This is a good thing. You might be able to take them for a few months till you climb out of this valley and not have to take them anymore. You will come out of this... I know does not seem like it now.

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