Did anyone read my original story?

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-2005
Did anyone read my original story?
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Fri, 02-25-2005 - 9:46pm
Just wondering if anyone read it or maybe you don't need to. I've read my story in so many of the posts. I need strength to do this. NC means he won't be remembering me. I know he must think of me. Help, I'm going crazy.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 12-28-2003
Fri, 02-25-2005 - 10:04pm

Rocket

Yes I read your first post.

I think your VERY LUCKY to be rid of this LOSER, you don't want to be attached to a serial cheater, if what you told his wife was the truth about him having 3 affairs before you then he is bad news and your not going to be able to trust him anymore then his wife could.

The fact that he ran her down to you and made insulting comments about her also does not say anything good about him, it shows him to be very immature and crude.

He seems to blame anything and everything for were he is in life from his marriage to his child, BUT THE TRUTH IS IT IS ALL HIS FAULT, he made the decisions that have him were he is in life.

I suspect you can do a lot better then this weeny.

JMHO

Free

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-02-2004
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 12:32am

My guess as to why no one is answering you is because the entire mess sounds like high school. There's got to be a grownup here somewhere, how about you stepping up to the plate? First you have to stop this stalking nonsense and stay out of their marriage,

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-13-2004
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 12:44am

id,

how do u make the colour green, its cool

max sorry i have nothing to say for rocket but u have to stop stalking as a first step if nothing else

max

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Registered: 11-19-2003
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 2:20am

The truth is that he will always remember you!

Not in the present sense of time but in the past...which is exactly how and where you should remember him!

Life is too short! Start living yours for YOU!

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-2005
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 11:48am

It is the truth about the other 3 women and when he used to go to the city with 'the boys' they would get escorts to come to the hotel. He said just for BJ nothing more. He said he stopped looking when he met me. He said I was everything and he didn't have the desire to look anymore. He was finally content.
I want to see him like you do, for who he really is. How do I let go once and for all? NC, NC, NC eh?

Thanks again,
Robin

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 1:00pm

Rocket

Lets start with the CONTENT crap, ya right your the one but he is back to seeing his wife again, tigers don't change there striops that easly.

I expect he is telling you the same B/S that he told his wife, and the reality is CHEATING IS CHEATING BJ or IC there is NO DIFFERENCE it is still CHEATING and what he did to her he will do to you.

Read the articule at the link below and find out how Special you are, You asked how to be FREE, knowing and accepting the TRUTH is what makes you FREE

http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-rlending&msg=15088.1&ctx=512

I don't mean to sound harsh BUT some times a kick in the butt is better then a kiss on the hand.

Free

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-2005
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 1:19pm

Thanks free, I think a kick in the butt is good. The posts by id are offensive, I don't gain anything, insight at all. I walk away hurt and I don't learn anything, just rudeness. I'm hurt now just from reading one of her posts. I'm looking to get better, I know I'm at a deep place and I'm not seeing the forrest for the trees but I'm hoping to get better with strength from those who have walked before me.

At one time in my life I was the life of the party, everyone loved me. Now no one calls me and I feel like I am alone. I go to work, go home, my father lives with me in the winter, and I watch tv with him. I would do other things but he's so lonesome that I watch tv every night with him. But I don't actually watch tv, I sit there and think.

I deleted all the emails the day after the breakup. The texts were gone within a week. I knew I had to then or I would be reading them every day. Now it's the thoughts.

My story is really messed up. How is it that id wrote something a long time ago about reduction and it was so true. I am amazed that others are going thru ( or have gone thru) the same exact thing. I do read the posts over and over so I can believe what everyone else is saying. I feel like I need to tell someone here on the boards everything from the beginning. Is that self-destructive or would it be freeing? I don't know. I look forward to hearing the wisdom here.

Here's a quote I like: 'Beneath consciousness lies repression, but beneath repression lies wisdom'. I want wisdom.

Thanks free.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-13-2004
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 1:58pm

rocket,

im sorry for your pain, have u ever thought of him as using u for sex only, i know it sounds uncomprehensible right now but have an open mind, sometimes LUST can be confused with LOVE especially when we are needing attention we are not getting from H or SO or none at all

i know u are in conflict , we all are, our heart and our minds are not in synch, its hard, but i think as time goes bye and if u have no contact u will realize if he is realy what want in your life or not, then u decide

all i can say is dont forget to eat your meals, dont get sick

take care, u are not the only one struggling, we all are,

max

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-2005
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 2:08pm


Thanks Max,
No more contact. Got it. I have to start thinking with my head. It's tough. I'm normally a strong confident person. I relate to people and people are attracted to me (so they say) b/c of my genuine smile. I find it so hard to smile anymore. I want summer to come so I can get outside. It's so cold, -15 today with the windchill. I want to get back to the person i was when I came back home from school. No one could say anything to me that bothered me. I knew who I was and what I wanted in life. I wonder if my strength was my husband. He is a wonderful man. I love almost everything about him. I'm not attracted to him at all. Christmas 2003 he forced himself on me and since then I couldn't let him touch me. I felt so gross when he'd get too close. We are still friends and chat about once per month. He said he was so disappointed in me when he found out who my bf was. Said I could do better and that I was pathetic for lowering my standards. It hurt but I needed to hear it. Did you read my other post? I went by his house last night. I will NOT do that again. Curious what he meant by the camera but I need to let it go. Thanks again for listening.

Robin

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-13-2004
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 2:31pm

hi rocket,

i know its hard for NC, but in the end it all up to you, what you want in your heart and mind, what makes you happy in the end

try to get yourself busy again, u have to admit that your behavior is not healthy, not healthy for u, u have to think of yourself

max

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