Did I do the right or wrong thing ......
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| Fri, 01-30-2004 - 7:37pm |
My gut told me to do this, because he probably would have called me soon "just to check on me" or something and my heart would have gotten in a knot. My intention was to scare him a little to think that just maybe I would seek a divorce in the future and want a life with him. (Really - I have no intention of divorcing my husband. He knows about XMM and it's being worked out between husband and me). Xmm & I have been in this thing for 2 years or better and he has told me more times than once that he "loved me" and how "he just wouldn't walk away, etc. (You know, the usual lines). I felt better after the phone call. Felt relieved etc, and have not once called him or even tried to dial his number. Now I'm starting to feel that maybe I left a door open just a little, for him to work his way back into my heart. I feel like it was a mistake that I did this. We have not talked since that phone call, and even tho it's only been a short time. The way I know him, I feel that he did have some kind of feelings for me. Maybe not as deep as I had/have for him, but something was there. He told me alot of personal info about him, his family, etc. He trusted me. I will always have a spot in my heart for him. I can't deny that. but I CANNOT be in an affair. I am not a player or even pretend to be one. That's just not me. Sometimes I think he will try and get back into my life and that's when I will be put to the test. I know I will have to turn my back and walk away on him, or who knows, I may never, ever hear from him again.
Please tell me, if I did the right or wrong thing. Thanks!!!

Right or wrong
Thanks again. And I'm Soooooo glad I found this board.