Digging out

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Digging out
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Tue, 12-21-2010 - 5:08pm

Babysteps


...even if it is all I can do, I can take one babystep.


NC/LC since May 21, 2010

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Registered: 12-15-2010
Tue, 12-21-2010 - 5:26pm

What a lovely post. I think that is so fantastic, and hear what you are saying totally. I feel the same. I have no more interest in him. I have an attachment to a habit, I think...but as for HIM? The man himself? Yawn.

I too spent the whole of this year wanting to end it. Trying to figure out how to do it painlessly. As if! In the finish, I gave up the struggle and handed my future over to the Universe. Told God, or Whomever - my version of Him - "You do what you want with this. I am done."

That was about six weeks ago, I guess...and finally yesterday I told him I was finished with it all.

I keep waiting to feel distressed but I guess we are all different. Maybe it will take a few days to sink in. I'm prepared for a roller-coaster of emotions, probably to hit at the time I least expect it. But the support on here has been amazing and I could never have done this without all of your help.

Well done you...you're yet another courageous and brave girl I can look to for inspiration when the tough times hit!