dont do what I did.... :(
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| Wed, 06-02-2010 - 2:07pm |
Hey EAS'ers I haven't been on too often lately since the W had contacted me. That was almost 2 weeks ago now. I still feel the guilt that I didnt reply but I believe that it is in my best interest that I close that door. As I did. Unfortunately I broke NC with him when all this went down. I felt miserable that I did. Even more so that he ignored my msg to him. I sent a message just telling him that I am done with ALL of it and I am not going to reply nor deal with any of them and they need to work it out. I was super nice to him. Even wished him luck in working it out and I didnt want to hurt the situation more than I already did. No response. Then I was devastated NOW I am relieved. I am glad he respected my wishes. On the other hand I feel rejected. In the midst of all this I discovered through his W message to me that here were many others. I felt like such a fool. I am now dealing with many regrets.
well what I did and STRONGLY advise you don't and those that have will know what I am talking about..I went on his profile on the social networking site and he had a "happy" photo of him with his family. Looks recent. I was sad actually very sad and I couldnt take that image out of my mind. I was also reminded that I am doing the right thing. I am feeling mixed emotions. So bitter sweet I suppose. I also thought the negative which took over 90% of the space in my head. I thought how I was worthless to him and he couldnt care less the hurt that he has caused. I feel like besides his W I am the only one hurting in this whole situation. He is dealing just fine. I dont wish harm or misery on anyone but a little empathy would be nice. An Im sorry I hurt you. But I am a grown adult and I know better than to fall for a MM. I really didnt plan for it. He on the other hand knew exactly what he wanted and he went after it full force. I wish that he just left me alone. Well at least he is now. Now I just have to deal with a lot of emotions I never knew you could actually feel all at one time :(. Its so hard and Im not dealing with it all too well.
Lesson learned: DO NOT look at his stuff EVER again. I cant it hurts me.

lll,
I absolutely refuse to look at his FB. Well, I did a month or so ago and he doesnt really use it. Only has 15 friends--mostly relatives--and doesn't even have a picture of himself posted. But still, just seeing his family (whom I've never seen before) left me feeling a bit like a garden slug. Of course I knew he had a family, but actually seeing them made me feel bad. For them.
Just hang on and ride that emotional wave. Even the big breakers
I'm glad you came back to let us know how things are going. You know, once the W calls, you can pretty much kiss the A and all of it's bagage goodbye...which actually isn't a bad thing. It's just untimely to those of you who weren't quite ready for the finality. The jury is still out on my decision as to whether I would have called her back or not. Perhaps in your situation it was the best choice, but then contacting him was
~Iddy~
Hi Live,
I did the same thing. I looked not only as HIS profile, but I looked at the new girl's profile as well. It was horrible and it was a major setback for me. I have since blocked them both on my FB settings, and it has helped me a lot. I am no longer tempted to go look.
Hang in there, sounds like you've learned the hard way just like I did. I feel your pain, sister, and I'm sending you big hugs.
-Angel
Hi LIve,
I just want to say that I've done the same thing in the past.