Dont know why I cant end it!!!
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| Mon, 03-07-2005 - 11:21am |
Hi All!
Ive been here before when i ended my first affair. And yes, ive ended it. But sad thing is, after I ended it. I got myself again into another affair. At first, I was in control.
Everything is going on so smoothly. Until, I slowly got sucked in by him.
He tells me he loves me but will never leave his wife. He gives me enough time when he's free. But lately with all his problems with his business and with all the demands of his wife, he hardly gives me quality time. The thing is, Ive gotten used to spending time with him every single day. And now, i cant resist not to see him or hear from him. Im so attached! And i dont know how to detach. I always need to know his sched first before I can schedule for myself (Isnt that so lame?). And I hate myself!!!
I know and can feel that he loves me but I also can feel that he loves his wife more than he loves me. And it hurts to know that. I know that I need to leave but problem is I dont know why I cant leave even though Ive got every reason to leave!
We've just spent the weekend together coz they are leaving the country for 3 weeks to work on having a baby with medical help since they have hormonal problems. These is their last try to have a baby. And im scared that this will also be the end of my relationship with him.
Im so scared and so depressed!!!
Sweetie

Sweetie
Have you got into individual counceling to deal with the WHYS of you getting involved with one married man after another, if not you should.
This affair will end you know this and you need to be working on the reasons for it so that it STOPS here and does not get repeated again.
TIME TO START TAKING CARE OF YOU.
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