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Don't think it worked too well...
| Wed, 01-12-2011 - 12:23pm |
If you have read my recent posts, you know that I am ready and wanting to GET OUT of the A!
I did not go to the meeting where I would run into him.
I did not send any final email, text or voice mail.
I chose to just "disappear".

Sunrise,
You'll get no more coddling from me. It's time to crappola or get off the pot. What are you waiting for? Do you think it will EVER be easy?? Hell no. There is never a "right" time to end it. A's don't end until there is a Dday or someone pull's their head out of their azz.
<> Why wait???? Why not STAND UP FOR YOURSELF NOW. You don't need to send him anything. Don't you get it? By not responding AT ALL, you are speaking
Sunrise, So glad you are here. You are taking charge of your life and believe me, I know how scared you are, but I know you will not regret this decision.
See, Sunrise?
You've got it all backwards, my dear. Change your email and block his calls now. No more waiting for one more email. Stop bargaining with yourself and start getting real. This is an endings board, remember? Not a "Oh, Let's see, I'll end it today and if he writes, I'll end it tomorrow, but wait, maybe he won't write for a few days, so I'll end it then." board. Let's get a backbone here and END IT RIGHT NOW...BLOCK AND WALK.
Over and out,
Sunrise-
My point:
YOUR A IS A LIE.
There is no maybe. No hope, no real-ness to it at all.
STOP WAITING and CHOOSE to do something for YOU.
IF you want your M at all - STOP THIS.
I won't respond to any more posts until you made a commitment for YOU.
"I want so badly to love him, in a better way than before"
This is NEVER going to happen while in the A - in any manner.
Your point:
"he's no longer getting all that he wants from me, he has moved on (new job, new truck). BUT, he wants to keep me hooked because he loves the game, the attention, the ego boost. It will never be more. And he'll play as long as I stay in contact with him."
MY POINT: YOU are no longer getting all that YOU want from this affair, BUT you still seem only TOO willing to keep yourself hooked because YOU love/hate the game, the attention, the ego boost. While you recognize you will never be more to him, .you'll play as long as YOU DON'T CHOOSE to make the RIGHT CHOICES NOW.
You're scared of the pain to come? Have YOU EVEN thought about the pain you are causing your H and your family?!
Oh, PLEASE hear our words. TIME is of the essence. End IT NOW. No more coddling, no more convincing you. THIS is on you. We will be here for you, BUT only you will have the strength to make it through or not.
TU.