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| Mon, 06-21-2004 - 8:21am |
Well, my MM has begun the NC by changing his cell #. And let me say, it's the best thing for both of us. I don't want that part of my life anymore. It brought me down to a place that I really didn't want to be. I'm so much better than that. I wanted to share that with you all. Even though it is best, and I am happy that the drama is gone, I do miss his sweetness. I went out on Friday, and saw his best friend. He said my MM doesn't love his wife, and doesn't care about me. To stay away. I guess that's the truth. I'm a good girl with alot going for me, and I just wanted to say YAHOO!! The support of this board has been great, and I've learned so much about people and I know that others make mistakes too. He did change his #, and if I really wanted to go searching, I could get to him. but I don't want him. I'm too good for any of it. And so are the rest of you. I want someone who wants just me, not me on the side. And we all deserve that. But all of us must get to that point on our own. I guess having him change his # is my esay way out.

Consider yourself lucky sweetie. My affair lasted almost 5 years, and I still have to work for him. I came to realize (took long enough) that if I could so easily disassociate my feelings from my "TRUE" self (and be part of something dishonerable and deceitful for so long), then I could reassociate myself with the person I used to be, just as easily. I just had to make that decision and stick with it. I've tried several times before, but this time was different. My feelings for xMM had drastically changed. I finally was able to step outside of the situation and see a weak, deceitful, lying jerk that anyone CAN hold a candle to. I was the enabler of this twisted relationship, so I had to be the one to disengage that ticking time bomb. Fortunately NO ONE ever found out about it, so the ONLY person I hurt was myself. But I am on the heal...
Take care, you'll be just fine.....
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This is a beauty of a statement! Best chuckle I've had in 2 days of missing my MM. Thanks a bunch. Ya know I too realize much of the "love chatter" and "blah blah" poop was all about the sex mostly. Men are wired so differently then women.