End of the Season

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Registered: 07-25-2003
End of the Season
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Mon, 06-07-2004 - 11:58am
for those of you that have been following my story, little league ended yesterday! My team won their last game (8-2) and my son's team, inexplicably lost (they were expected to play in the championship game next weekend!). So what this means for me, is that little league is finally over and that means all my contact with xMM.

For those of you just starting out, my A ended last July, though we kept in contact and flirted with our feelings throughout the fall and early winter. My problem has been, since then, the issue of running into xMM at little league and in our small community. Now that my primary source of contact with xMM is over, i suspect that, finally, putting this all behind me can start. I don't know how you rid yourself of xMM if you work with him, except to change jobs; or if you live near him, except to move. All of these suggestions are totally unworkable. I am lucky my contact can finally end with one last strike out or homerun.

For those of us that work with xMM or live near xMM or have other dealings with xMM beyond the As we had, it's very very tough. I cannot wait to see how i do now that i have no excuse to get in touch with him. I so much want to contact hiim today about things, but i can't and i won't, though it is hard.

I suspect that soon, i will only come to this board to read how we are all doing and to remember the pain of when i first came here confused, upset, depressed. But i do think that part of my healing will be, in time, not to come to this board to post anymore. If you don't hear from me, it's not that i am not thinking of all of you, I am. We have had a special relationship, all of us, here. I do not know what i would have done without this board.

All my love to all of you.

Clarice

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Registered: 05-18-2004
Mon, 06-07-2004 - 12:22pm
Hi Clarice, congrats on making it through this season and finally being able to have this to look forward to. I know it might be hard because now you really don't have any reason to contact him or see him. I wish for you the strength to put this behind you. I don't know if this will help, but I want to write my xMM and every day I tell myself "if I can just make it through today, I'll write him tomorrow". And then the next day comes and I do the same thing. So far it's worked! Good luck :-)