Ending an A is tough? Ha!
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Ending an A is tough? Ha!
| Fri, 06-18-2010 - 6:15pm |
I can/did end my affair but you know what would be tough?
| Fri, 06-18-2010 - 6:15pm |
I can/did end my affair but you know what would be tough?
Being able to make decisions myself and not be waiting for him to dictate anything.
Owning my own joy and or pain. My day belongs to me.
My kids are first, they healed me.
I am blessed to look in the mirror and like you I see.
Walk with my head high
Able to forgive myself
Blessed to be healthy despite the hell he put me thru with his lies and deceit
Blessed to be free of my phone as if it was oxygen as if it was a oxygen tank
Please add on....
Been missing everyone. have not posted in ever before
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Hi Energy-
What a nice post... so there was a time when I thought I couldn't live without xap. Ha! Not only am I still alive, I am thriving... but here's what I couldn't live without:
My devoted H and my two big puppies
Diet Coke
Coors light
Sunday afternoons with my family
My roller skates
My ipod full of happy songs... totally purged of "our" songs
My blog
This board and all of my EAS sisters
Good beer (in moderation of course)
My H's fantastic cooking
Lightening bugs
Living in my real life and enjoying every minute of it
Hugs,
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
I can live without my X, no problem, but I realized I cannot live without being loved and being able to express my love -- but only in a healthy, whole and pure way. No halfsies, fakey love for me anymore. Never, ever again.
Dee
energy, I laughed at your hair dye post.
I have to cover up the dreaded grays every 3 weeks. And it's super expensive, over $100.00 to get this done. xAP is so dang cheap, if I was with that bozo, I certainly wouldn't be the chickie he thought was so beautiful, I'd be an old lady with gray hair cause he would be too dang cheap to pay for it. Of course I'd be destitute 'cause H would see to that!!
Don't like that scenario at all - ha ha !!
no nice clothes
no new shoes (gotta have those)
no fancy sports car
no quickee trips
no redecorating, ever
no pool in my backyard
no gourmet food
no nice dinners out
no wine (oh NO !!)
no new nothing, ever.
basically, my life would be totally changed. I would be handed a
small cash allowance once a month ($300.00) and that would be my
fun money. He'd pay all the bills and scream bloody murder if I went 1 minute over on my cell, spent a dime too much at the grocery store or bought something he deemed unnecessary. And how amazing is it when we were in the middle of the affair craziness, we couldn't see this !!! I just wanted him and all the real life stuff didn't matter. So blessed to be out of the fog and out of the affair.
Out of the dark and in to the light for me now too
Great addition GMLB! I think if we all had a crystal ball to see the "real" future, we would realize that these men are no more than the man behind the curtain in OZ!
Bodhi