Ending an A is tough? Ha!

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Registered: 09-25-2006
Ending an A is tough? Ha!
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Fri, 06-18-2010 - 6:15pm

I can/did end my affair but you know what would be tough?

Onward and upward.
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Registered: 01-18-2010
Fri, 06-18-2010 - 9:53pm

Being able to make decisions myself and not be waiting for him to dictate anything.

Owning my own joy and or pain. My day belongs to me.

My kids are first, they healed me.

I am blessed to look in the mirror and like you I see.

Walk with my head high

Able to forgive myself

Blessed to be healthy despite the hell he put me thru with his lies and deceit

Blessed to be free of my phone as if it was oxygen as if it was a oxygen tank

Please add on....

Been missing everyone. have not posted in ever before

Luvin

Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Registered: 02-02-2010
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 8:49am

Hi Energy-


What a nice post... so there was a time when I thought I couldn't live without xap. Ha! Not only am I still alive, I am thriving... but here's what I couldn't live without:


My devoted H and my two big puppies


Diet Coke


Coors light


Sunday afternoons with my family


My roller skates


My ipod full of happy songs... totally purged of "our" songs


My blog


This board and all of my EAS sisters


Good beer (in moderation of course)


My H's fantastic cooking


Lightening bugs


Living in my real life and enjoying every minute of it


Hugs,


Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 12:03pm

I can live without my X, no problem, but I realized I cannot live without being loved and being able to express my love -- but only in a healthy, whole and pure way. No halfsies, fakey love for me anymore. Never, ever again.

Dee

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Registered: 08-06-2007
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 12:28pm

energy, I laughed at your hair dye post.

I have to cover up the dreaded grays every 3 weeks. And it's super expensive, over $100.00 to get this done. xAP is so dang cheap, if I was with that bozo, I certainly wouldn't be the chickie he thought was so beautiful, I'd be an old lady with gray hair cause he would be too dang cheap to pay for it. Of course I'd be destitute 'cause H would see to that!!
Don't like that scenario at all - ha ha !!

no nice clothes
no new shoes (gotta have those)
no fancy sports car
no quickee trips
no redecorating, ever
no pool in my backyard
no gourmet food
no nice dinners out
no wine (oh NO !!)
no new nothing, ever.
basically, my life would be totally changed. I would be handed a
small cash allowance once a month ($300.00) and that would be my
fun money. He'd pay all the bills and scream bloody murder if I went 1 minute over on my cell, spent a dime too much at the grocery store or bought something he deemed unnecessary. And how amazing is it when we were in the middle of the affair craziness, we couldn't see this !!! I just wanted him and all the real life stuff didn't matter. So blessed to be out of the fog and out of the affair.

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Registered: 11-04-2009
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 2:05pm

Out of the dark and in to the light for me now too

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Mon, 06-21-2010 - 2:38pm

Great addition GMLB! I think if we all had a crystal ball to see the "real" future, we would realize that these men are no more than the man behind the curtain in OZ!

Bodhi