ending what never began.......

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Registered: 02-18-2005
ending what never began.......
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Sun, 02-20-2005 - 10:27am
Help I want to email OM. i chose to stop because i know It has to. LIke I've said before weve never had sex. But I believe we both wanted to. Me more than him. I'm married and he wont because of that. Hes basically said so. but he also has said he is attracted to me and we flirt alot at work. I will see him today for a feew hours. I usually email him and he only emails me when I'm wanting an ansewer to something. I feel so much for him. I'm not sure he know how much, not sure it would matter if he did. He knows I am sad that we didn't get together a few weekends ago. He said "sorry" at work. I said "what for". " because you hurt my feelings". He know how I feel. He just has strong values and alot of willpower. I on the other hand want to be with him so bad. Its mostly my fault cause I keep hoping he will break and give in to what I think we are both feeling. But i am trying to end what has never really began. Oh well I just need to get this out. thanks for listening.
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-13-2004
Sun, 02-20-2005 - 11:15am

hi kitkat,

do u just want to have sex with him ?, u are the lucky one i think, because u never had sex yet with him, once that happens it a whole new ballgame

is OM married?, why do u want to be with him ? u r married, i dont know ur story but i assume that your M is not doing well ?, maybe u should take care of M forst, maybe OM is not comfortable with having an affair with u

i know its hard but having an affair is not gonna solve it, it gonna hurt everyone

be strong,
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