Enjoying the moderate emotional landscape for a change

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Registered: 12-01-2010
Enjoying the moderate emotional landscape for a change
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Mon, 01-03-2011 - 9:51am

I just want to say that I am feeling probably the best I've felt in a long long time. I have no idea how long now since NC but it hasnt been that long and it doesn't matter. Deleting the xAP's phone number from my

Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!
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Registered: 06-17-2010

Sunshine -

It's amazing what we get used to as "normal" isn't it? Yes, there will still be lows, but the edges will continue to wear off. I still play mind games with myself and do whatever it takes to keep moving forward. When you really think about it, "normal" life (daily life without being in an A) doesn't really consist of too many extreme highs and lows. It's "even" most of the time. So, the peace you are feeling is wonderful. Keep the sun shining :)

Bodhi

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Registered: 04-01-2010

(((Sunshine)))

I am so glad you were strong enough to make it to this point. This is when things really start turning around for you. You are able to see things for what they were with brilliant, fog-free eyes. Your focus will become even more about you, as you examine the "whys" of your actions and choices.

OMG, I remember when that rollercoaster finally ended!! Never been so happy to get off a rollercoaster in my life!!

You are right in knowing that you are still going to be experiencing some highs and lows, but the distance between the pendulum swings will

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-22-2009
It's good to read that you are feeling so much better. See? Blocking *does* work in helping us to regroup and restore. That strange and foreign peace you are feeling had been buried under piles of useless A debris and has wanted more than anything to free itself. Now you are giving yourself a chance to breathe in the fresh air of reality; perhaps not as exciting at times, but way more beneficial to your over all health.

Keep it coming, Sunshine. Every day you will see little improvements magically appearing within your emotional landscape. ;-)

((Hugs))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 12-31-2009

Excellent work, Sunshine!

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Registered: 10-14-2010

Sunshine!!!!!!!!!!

HIGH FIVE YOU!!!!!!

Good job, isn't this the BEST PART YET?!??!?!?!?!

I promise you - you've turned a corner! Here's why:

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 12-01-2010
Thanks M -- I am totally psyched too and feel like this is similar to that feeling when I broke away from a very emotionally oppressive marriage. I now feel ALIVE and yet calm. xoxo
Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!